FancyFace Posted December 14, 2015 Posted December 14, 2015 I walked into my favourite second hand bookstore, the one he introduced me to, and there he was, standing at the new arrivals table looking up at me with the expression of a toddler having been caught stealing sugar. I didn't miss a beat, neither did my heart, so I kept walking in at the same pace, my face stayed pretty much the same and I extended a simple "hi". He said "hello" back and I walked past him to the back where my favourite section is. A girl was there and I made cute conversation with her about how I hoped she didnt get all the good books and we proceeded to exchange polite witty banter about books before she said bye and walked toward by ex, took his hand and went to the till to pay for their books. With their backs turned to me, I walked out of the store and got into my car. At the traffic lights I saw them walking hand in hand towards an apartment block. The funny thing is, I had just come from therapy and joked with my therapist that if I ever saw my ex, I would spit in his eye or try tackle him to the ground lol. And then literally 15 minutes later, there was the opportunity in front of me and the thought didnt even cross my mind. When I saw him, the only thought I had was 1. damnit, did he get all the good books (LOL I am a nerd) and 2."what a waste". I wasted an entire year in a relationship with him and then another crying over him. And then it hit me, whilst I am not gonna lie and say that i absolutely do not care (come on man, I am human), it's so great to be over him and the entire horrific experience. The only way was through maintaining NC, posting here and reading similar experiences here so thank you to everyone here. To the newly broken hearted, I know you can't see it now but everything is gonna be alright. You just have to have HOPE and know that no matter what, something better (whether its romantically or otherwise) is just around the corner. Stay strong people! 5
schlieman Posted December 14, 2015 Posted December 14, 2015 Thank you so much for this positive post, it gave me more hope and saved my day. It's great to see you made it and don't look back. I hope i will be there one day(and deep down i know i will), will be able to enjoy and live life again.
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