anonymousbear00101100 Posted December 14, 2015 Posted December 14, 2015 I'm taking a break from my history final paper (The effect of Article 16a of the German Basic Law on the current refugee crisis in Europe. Why did I pick such dull topic?) because I've had a slightly worse day than the past four. Also it smells like Chinese food and I can't concentrate. Last weekend I was talking to a lady friend and she invited me and my friend to sit at her table with her roommate and some other girls. We all talked, exchanged numbers, and went home around 1:30 in the morning. It was fun but I still felt really sad and awful all week. That changed on Thursday when I happened to stumble into them girls at the gym. Since then, my roommate and I have been hanging out with two of these at the gym, at a cafe, and in our respective rooms until 3:30 in the morning on both Friday and Saturday. I'm also kind of starting to have feelings for one of them. She's beautiful and nice and funny and outgoing and athletic and just an incredible change of pace from the melodramatic and depressing nature of my ex. I've been so happy for the past couple of days, and feeling like a gigantic weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Maybe it was staying out way too late the last few nights, or maybe it's the stress of my finals coming up, but today has been a tiny step backward. I thought about my ex more than once every couple of hours, and I also started to miss her a bit. I'm doing pretty well and I have a clear head, but since I haven't been in contact with these girls today and am mentally and physically exhausted, I've moved back slightly when I thought I was coasting to being fully recovered. My mind set is no longer "what should I do to get her back", but still the thought of her is annoying and sometimes sudden pangs of jealousy creep in. It's been a little over a month since the breakup, and I think I'm finally doing well, but I leave for home on Wednesday, and I'm terribly afraid that being away from all of my friends and this girl that I will start to go backwards. Is this actual progress or has the distraction of the other two girls just been blinding me to my true feelings?
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