Curiouswander Posted December 12, 2015 Posted December 12, 2015 Me and my ex broke up in September for that whole month she wanted nothing but me. I was having personal issues and hid them from her so she was unaware about the way I felt. She's been there for me for two years. Through all my legal troubles and me trying to get my life together. As of this point we do not talk at all. I have everything going for me in life everything I worked for this year I have accomplished. I am about to turn 20 next month but with everything I have and have accomplished o still feel like I'm missing something. Never in my life have I felt so empty. My ex and I had stayed friends after the break up but at the end of December she out of nowhere tells me she wants to live her life and posts pictures of a new guy. Of course we fought about it and she just seemed so different. If felt as if she was indifferent towards me. When weeks before she was crying in my arms. She came to this state with her family the last year of highschool but her parents returned shortly after. I'm pretty sure she stayed for me cus she doesn't have any family or close friends here. When I tell you we were everything for each other I mean it in the sense that for two years i literally barley talked to anyone but her. On the last day I spoke to her she told me this new guy makes her feel things I don't. She told me she didn't love me or care about me and that our relationship was a great friendship. I didn't take that well as she left her apartment I impulsively hit her wall and made a hole I paid for it of course. After that I entered no contact until a month and a half later I sent her a message asking her about her apartment lease but since we weren't friends she didn't receive it so I decided to messege her number and I told her I was sorry for my actions, I appreciated how well she treated me and that there were no hard feelings between us. She then responds but saying she is fine not to worry about her and that she found her happiness so to move on. I know it's pretty black in white but it doesn't make sense to me. Not even a two weeks after her crying in my arms she turns into a different person and is suddenly in love it's been almost 3 months they have been together. With all the holidays coming up all I'm thinking about is her. I've tried getting over her with just about everything I workout I hang out with friends and I have casual sex but still every morning I wake up with her on my mind and go to bed with it too. We aren't friends on social media and she has everything protected but friends have been telling me she's saying she found the one. I wasn't a good boyfriend the last couple months I known I took her for granted but I just want her in my life again. This guy literally did everything I failed to do I guess you can say he's the opposite of me. I just want to know how she is if I should hold out longer to wait for her or try to move on still... I'm not the emotional type and I'm stuck like this she always was more emotional so how is she fine and I'm stuck with all the pieces... I don't even want to go to my friends because I'm embarrassed to say I'm still in love with a girl who left with another guy. Like I said she doesn't have many friends I was contemplating messaging her niece who lives in another state since I know they're real close for some insight in the relationship and some advice but I've only spoken to her a couple of times.. I don't know what I'm doing I just need a difinitive answer in what to do. I've even prayed for signs for her to come back or for me to be able to move on. I just wanna show her I can be the guy she wants maybe I didn't value her before but I know now how special she is I just want a second chance to fix what I messed up.
marky00 Posted December 12, 2015 Posted December 12, 2015 Add me to the list buddy. Im 9 mths post BU
d0nnivain Posted December 12, 2015 Posted December 12, 2015 I'm sorry you are hurting but you need to understand that your relationship with her ran it's course & is over. Your relationship, like countless others did not survive the transition from childhood (18/high school) to adulthood. With legal troubles & whatever else is going on in your life, you need to let her go. Lick your emotional wounds & focus on yourself. Heal from the loss of this relationship. Stop attempting to rekindle it. She's fine with it being over & you must find a way to accept that too. Then move on to the next phase of your life.
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