Crazy or Sane?

[Butterfly228]

This is going to jump around and kind of rant please bare with me..

 

I've been in a relationship for 3 years now, we lived together, we broke up for a month got back together, I'm living with him again. I found out we broke up because he was trying to start a new relationship with someone else, he ended whatever that was before we got back together because he missed me. I started finding out about things that happened when we were living together, but I was doing a fair share dirt and of not being there when he needed me. We've never cheated on eachother (to my knowledge) It's been a big mess. We love eachother deeply. I feel like I can never talk to him my points dont get across to him, I've caught him in lies and the last time we argued he had the nerve to tell me he thinks I have "a mental problem" and I'm too "clingy" when I asked him to explain what he meant he told me I'm too clingy because I get upset when he doesn't text back or text me all day. Side note I don't have anyone in my life that loves/cares for me the way that he does. My own family is not even there and being that we've been together for 3 years I would think that'd be his place someone to talk to anytime of the day, lean and rely on. I put him first. We dont have conversations, we have blow outs. We both have changed alot of issues about eachother for the sake of our relationship and to better ourselves. When we argue he feels the need to hurt with words, blame me for his anger problems and put a wall up and not talk to me about the issues at hand. I guess I just need to know I'm not crazy in asking for things in return such as being put first and his attention, I need to know I'm not being a psycho and it's okay to ask for things that I deserve. I know what I need to do, I'm just not sure if I'm not seeing what I'm doing, if that makes sense. I just need outside opinions.

[Redfisher]

does not sound like two people who love each other...Read your post as an outsider and tell me if it looks good?