stuck on her. how do i move on?

[globo20]

okay so basically I’m gonna give you a run down on everything.

 

i dated me ex for 1.5 years. we are 18 we where madly in love and everything was great. towards the end of our relationship i started being an ******* and pushing her away. i don’t know why. i took her for granted and treated her like she was gonna be there forever. she would’ve done anything for me and i let that go. its been a little over two months since our breakup. our relationship became long distance when the school year started and would’ve ended in december when i moved to the city where my school was. she went to a school nearby mine to be closer to me. i was “that guy” for about 2 weeks after our breakup. i really lost sight on who i was and what i was actually doing. during that two weeks she was cold hearted and showed no emotions toward me. *keep in mind this girl is the most emotional girl I’ve ever met* two weeks after the breakup i gave up. after 20 days of no contact she texted me asking how i was doing. after casually texting for like 2 days i brought up our relationship. whenever i do she flips out and just blows up. so we stopped talking again.

 

keep in mind this whole breakup happened over the phone with no human interaction. its crazy because i lived with her and her family for like 3 months. we finally met up a week and some go to talk about us. she told me she still loved me but we couldn’t be together. she also told me maybe one day we will cross paths again. but told me not to have hope because we don’t know what the future holds. I’m EXTREMELY confused on what to think. I’m not sure if she told me that to basically softly reject me or she was being honest. i love this girl with everything i have and its strange how we are complete strangers again.. i can’t help but to feel abandoned and worthless. i feel as if she is not even phased by this breakup and is doing completely fine. i wake up every morning wishing it was just a dream but reality strikes and i feel its pain.

 

i sometimes check her twitter and tumblr. i guess i look at it to kinda feel involved with her because i know nothing about her anymore. today she tweeted a picture of a text she received saying “ smile baby girl”. i see some posts and i sometimes think they are of me, but i know they probably aren’t. it hurt so much not only because it was probably from another guy but that was what i used to call her. i don’t know what to do. for some reason i find it extremely hard to let go. i love her, and i know i have to push my selfish ways aside because if it was up to me i would want her to be with me. but i want her to be happy. and i know because of that i have to move on. i just don’t know how. it kills me to know that when i move friday to the city she’s by we will not talk or even associate. we are strangers again and i hate it. i hate that i care about her so much and she probably give zero sh*ts about me. she had me blocked on twitter but within the last two days she unblocked me. idk why. but I’m trying not to think anything of it. i know i shouldn’t use a twitter to base things off of but thats all i have. how can she be ready for a relationship? and this is the second guy she’s talked to since we have broken up. why is she trying to replace me so hard?

 

 

i have noticed progress since the first days of our breakup and but i feel like my mind is in the same place. stuck on her. how do i move on? i really wish that i could just delete her from my life but i can’t. i want her back. i really do. but i want her to want me. i know i can’t force things or change people mind just like that. but I’m just stuck on what to do. pls help?

[Triggs1234]

Overthinking my friend. I felt many of those same thoughts when my girlfriend did a similar thing. Focus on yourself. You are a young guy and have a lot ahead of you. I dated a girl in HS/freshman yr of college for 4 years and we split up. I thought I loved her and couldn't live without her. I am now 23 and have realized that back then I didn't know what love was. I was infatuated with her. I can assure you that one day you will look back and realize you were too infatuated. I could be wrong, but it is likely.