its so hard to forget

[giggl3znena]

even though i have said to people that i am okay i really am not i know im young and i can find someone new but i really dont want to because i really did love this guy and i mean i really cared for him he was my first long distance realationship and that scares me that i cant forget him it was just 4 months that we had been together but at times i think at times it was my fault that we broke up because i had told him that i needed time to think and that i was confuse and i really was and i guess he got sick of wating but i told him so many times that i love him and that i didnt want to lose him because he was just so sweet and nice i didnt want to lose a guy like that but i feel like me and him are never going to get a second cahnce because the last time we talk we argued becasue he had said that i had talk behinde his back to his friend but ir eally didnt ever since me and him have been over he has been so cold and like a different person and i still cant get over the fact that he went out with someone younget then me and also he went out twith this person right after we broke up it seem like he didnt care,he didnt care that i still loved him i feel like he never love me and all the promises he made to me i jsut think about it and i start crying and thinking did he really care about me and then i say to my self he did at a time its just so hard to think that i dont ahve him no more i do anything to get him back but at the same time i know i need to move on and im trying i jsut dont know how or what sould i do i miss him i miss the way he held me,the way he talk to me, also he way he kiss me,and said "I LOVE YOU" i miss all of that i jsut dont know what to do i love him and i always will he will always have in my head casue i really did fall hard for him i jsut know if me and him have a chance again or its really done and im the one who most got hurt in this realationship

[bstill]

You should listen a song called "its easy to remember (butso hard to forget)." The best instrumental versionis by John COltrane off a record called "Ballads." The vocal version I prefer is by Karrin Allyson off of "Ballads: RememberingJohn COltrane."