emotionsmessmeup Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 hello y'all... how is everyone..long time.. I am in India.... will return at the end of next week...hopefully if everything goes as planned.. just found out my ex has gone to NY to see his new girl...feeling clingy and low. i just dont know what i want anymore.. i want my life to be fair... i want justice..! i hope god will give me justice... rest all is cool... i had asked my fwb for a relationship and he had said he will let me know when i come back from India..i am getting mixed signals..not even expecting an positive answer...but hey wth... nothing much..
CurlyIam Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 EMMU, you don't want justice, you want your ex to be miserable, to suffer and be in a lot of pain . I hear you, girl! Unfortunately this is not the way life goes. Why do you keep getting news about him? Stop doing that, it's like scratching an old scar. It will never heal unless you stop touching it. From your post, I don't think you're ready for a relationship. All I feel you want is to simply replace your ex with this fwb of yours. And be dependant on a man again. Maybe he will want that, maybe he won't. I don't think you should start a relationship with anyone right now. Take this time to think and learn new things about yourself, to read, to enjoy India! You're so lucky to be going there, there are a lot of temples... learn to meditate and to relax... this could be the beginning of a very rich spiritual life. Men? Two dimes a dozen! Find another focus in your life and calm down. Big hug, Curly
Author emotionsmessmeup Posted May 29, 2005 Author Posted May 29, 2005 hugs... yea i want him to hurt even worse than i am hurting.. how does he get to hurt someone and walk away and be happy..its not fair.. what goes around, comes around...and it should come around him.. because NOW I KNWO FOR SURE HE LEFT ME FOR HER! i really do like my fwb....and my feelings for my ex have gone...yea..i need to stop getting news about him...but somehow from somewhere i happen to get it... but thats it...i am gonna go and change my phone number... i am doing a lot of new things...trying to understand myself and what i like... trying to keep busy.... thanks curly .. ur few words always help! how are things with u?
CurlyIam Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 Messed up, as usual, LOL EMMU, I do believe in karma. He will have whatever he diserves, and this is not a threat, but the mere fact of life, as I've experienced it. The bad thing about all this is the timing. God has his own plans for everyone... so don't push it. Let Him decide. He has a wicked sense of humour, they say . Girl, it doesn't matter why he left. He left. That's the most important thing. This is the point where you should stop asking yourself questions about him and focus on your own life. Maybe he did indeed leave you for her. Maybe it's a cruel thing to say, but love knows no reason, no right and wrong... Let him be. It just didn't work between you two. That's all you need to know. The main point is that you are the most important person in your life. You need to take care of yourself. So screw your ex and date one or two attractive British men that are surely lurking around yourself there!
Author emotionsmessmeup Posted May 29, 2005 Author Posted May 29, 2005 girl..u have no idea how much male attention i am getting here... havent given in to any attractions yet though..... hope u feel better..
CurlyIam Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 Things are peachy on this side of the planet. Messed up, but peachy, ! I wouldn't expect anything else from you but that, EMMU. so... I guess it's pride that prevents you from letting go, huh? 've been there, done that . All I can say is get out and party like there's no tomorrow. I sure hope that this fresh air does you good.
Author emotionsmessmeup Posted May 29, 2005 Author Posted May 29, 2005 you are so right.. its my ego and my pride...that asks me what is wrong with me..why not me... and yes i forget it when i party.....but then it comes again... why not me...why does he say..you and me can never be together again...
CurlyIam Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 Look, it hurts real bad, but it's your pride, get it? YOUR PRIDE! Let it go!!! I'm sure you're an attractive young lady, but hey, even actresses get cheated on and dumped. What do you think it cannot happen to you? The way you're talking about it makes me think of OCD... ever talked to someone about it? I know I am totally clueless as far as handling break ups goes... but, I don't know, usually it doesn't get this ugly . I mean, one day you're fine and looking perky and the next day you're back at square one. If you can't stop thinking about your ex, at least don't contact him and tell your friends to not be giving you any info about him. This is preventing you from moving on, can't you see that?
Jadey Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 I have OCD.. And im feeling like **** right now. I miss him soooo much I know how youre feeling huni! I text him earlier, a joke. A JOKE! WHY? I just wanted to see if hed text back. And well, he hasnt. I probably hurt him when i sent him a text that was meant for someone else (check out one my othe threads) I feel so stupid/low/anxious.. ARGHHHHHH
Jadey Posted May 29, 2005 Posted May 29, 2005 And wwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyy does he still ahve that LOOK in his eyes? Like he still loves me And hes so depressed lately, everyone says it.. Sorry im going off on one, this is your thread lol..... *steps away*
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