Feelings of regret about break up

[oniz86]

So I met Lady X on December of last year, we met online and hit it off right away. We dated a lot, mostly spent the time at my house since she didn't know anybody in the area (she had just moved to this area). Around April things were happening in my personal life with work where i was feeling kind of frustrated and felt like things were going by too fast with her (we talked about getting a place together, etc, she spent a lot of time at my place) so in one little argument I broke it up with her. That same day I called her, apologized and tried to get back with her. After that break up she seemed a bit distant and two weeks later she decided to break it up completely. I was super bummed out because I knew that I had lost her trust. Two weeks later we meet , talked about why it didn't work out and she decides to tell me about an old relationship she had years ago and how the breakup had brought her back to it. She started texting her ex who lives on the other side of the country just to talk, we had drinks and had sex, we start little by little seeing each other and eventually get back together. Around July I asked her if she was still texting her ex and she told me yes, just as friends. This worried me a bit because I felt like something might be going on so i started snooping on her phone. Nothing on the text messages indicated any cheating whatsover but i brought it up to her that texting her ex was making me feel uncomfortable, she said she would not stop texting because she wasn't doing anything wrong so i let it go. by mid July I told her that I needed to find a place closer to where I work, she suggested that it would be nice to live together with our cats (we each have one), we found a great tiny one bedroom apartment and moved in August. We moved in because it helped us with our commute and also to save $$.

 

Once we started moving in together I began to feel a bit stressed about the move, I don't like moving and she was the opposite , she was really excited which made me happy but I felt stressed because our cats weren't getting a long at first. Around September I started looking at her phone to see if she was still texting the ex and she was, it was about a once a week super short text , once again nothing indicating cheating but I noticed that she was hiding the texts by archiving them so they wouldn't show on the inbox. I asked her if she was still texting ex and she admitted that yes she was, i told her once again that i was bothered by it because I don't text my ex's. I asked her who is more important, him or me, she said me so i let it go.

 

On October we took a trip and on our way back she was asleep and her phone vibrated and noticed it was the ex again, i looked at the text and it was him apologizing for something. Later that night she had responded that she loved him and would be friends for life. Reading that made me really uncomfortable so when we got back i told her i needed a break. Mind you, she did not know i had read her text messages but i did tell her i saw that her ex had texted her while she was asleep. So i go to my dads house to spend a few days there and he tells me to go back to her, and fix it because if she loves me she will work it out with me. I go back to the apartment and she tells me that she had written a letter to her ex as to why she would stop communicating with him but then decided that she felt like she didn't have to do it and that I had trust issues. I stuck with her for another month until earlier this month I saw her phone once again and noticed that she was texting him how he was doing , it came to a point where I could no longer stay there. The first thing she asked me when i told her i couldn't be with her anymore was "did you sleep with somebody else?" that took me by surprise, i never cheated on her. I did admit that i had seen her text messages which is why i was holding on so many feelings for too long.

 

Now its been three weeks since I've seen her, I had sent her text messages to see how she's doing, drunk messages to let her know how hard it was for me to break up , how the texting of her and her ex made me feel. BUT, now that I'm looking at things from the outside, was i maybe too immature for her? The reason i ask is because the ex lives on the other side of the country, no text messages indicated cheating, pictures of me with her on instagram were liked by him, could it be that she really is just friends with him and not wanting anything ? ****kkkkk

[casey.lives]

if you're not the one your ex was turning to for conversation- you're nobody. When a man loves a woman, she is the voice he wants to wake up to and go to sleep to. If he's busy talking with another woman... who the f**** are you talking to??? it's a lonely one-sided dynamic. MOVE ON. He sounds immature to me, honestly