mullins Posted May 27, 2005 Posted May 27, 2005 Those of you that have seen my posts will know the pain (physical as well as mental) that i have been through. From the time i knew she wanted to leave, up untill now has neen more than a year....a year of thinking things cannot possibly get any lower, yet time and time again i proved myself wrong! I did the begging, the pleading, the crying, the anger, the why me? I sufed the net for hours trying to find answers, forums to post my feelings, places where i could open up....i found here. People all in similar postions as to how i was, people who knew the pain i were going through, people that offered support, wisdom of their own past experiences....it seemed more friend like. We all feel/felt that we will never love or be loved again, i tried to date, but realised 4 months seperation was no where near enough. I did the NC, and it was such a huge help, i think it was the deciding factor that made me wake up and see that it wasnt all my fault. I had been chatting to a female friend in my times of pain, she knew i were in no postion to date again, but offered an online shoulder to cry on, such a help was she that i felt i could meet her purely as friends last night, she knew i really was not interested in a relationship of any form. The evening went well, and on her leaving we hugged, then it happened!! that feeling inside of happiness, the mutual feeling of a hug turning into a kiss That feeling you never thought you could feel again! To climb into bed at night once again with a smile on your face, thinking that the world is not such a bad place after all. Keep strong for yourself and your children if you have them to, there really can be happiness and contentment at the end of the tunnel, you reall can see that you you were not all at fault, it takes two to break up.
ConfusedInOC Posted May 27, 2005 Posted May 27, 2005 Congrats man! That makes us all feel better, for you, and for us.
Angeleyez2583 Posted May 27, 2005 Posted May 27, 2005 That's awesome you found that happiness again! I just hope in time that I can once again experience it. Until then I'm gonna focus on myself!
Jadey Posted May 27, 2005 Posted May 27, 2005 Im very very happy for you!! You stay happy..Good Luck! xxx
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