Finally, freedom!

[SethDamien]

I've been mulling about my break up for two years already.

I've been severely depressed and attempted suicide,

(thankfully i talked myself out of it).

 

But just now, i finally saw the jerk my ex Gf was.

 

It was really hard to see beyond her innocent looks,

small physique, and timid personality to discover her

abusive and manipulative attitude.

 

When we broke up, we didn't do NC, i stayed close to her

because i wanted her back. I thought she was the nicest girl

when i first met her and I still believed it when she dumped me.

 

I stayed in a one-sided relationship with her for a

whole year post BU. She called me "friend", while i did her chores,

brought her groceries, and even did her laundry,

while she dated another dude and verbally abusing me for the

smallest mistakes i do.

 

Still, i kept telling myself:

"she's worth it all"

"i'll keep doing things for her so she'll realize how much i love her"

 

Right now, i feel like a heavy burden's been lifted from me,

I hope this keeps up.

 

PS. to all those suffering heartbreak, It really DOES get better.

I dated a few here and there but I never felt whole with them...

but after this feeling, i think i can finally jump in and give 100%

of my time and attention to that someone who would matter.

 

cheers!

[Silver_star]

Good for you. When you come to terms with the fact the relationship wasn't all that great and the other person get's knocked off their pedestal, you can see them for who they really are, and you can also realize that there are WAY more fish in the sea.

[moonwalker86]

Great to hear! I have been feeling better myself about my situation recently. The pain is still too recent but the shock and numbness is gone and I don't feel like I need her to be alive like I did a few days ago. Healing is a wonderful thing.