Amberlove81993 Posted November 17, 2015 Posted November 17, 2015 I've been in this same relationship for the past five years of my life and it may be the most difficult thing I have ever experienced. It is so difficult to explain how I feel. At first glance anyone would look at our relationship and wonder why I had not left him long ago. He has cheated on me several times. He has consistently been physically and emotionally abusive. Many times he has been so cold that it leaves me breathless and yet I have still loved him all this time with everything in me. I don't believe there is anything that he can do that would make me not love him. I just want to believe so bad that his good qualities outweigh his bad and that in the end the love he has for me is worth fight for but it is slowly starting to show that I may never be enough for him. I almost doubt he loves me at all and then that makes me confused because why would someone who doesn't really love you stay around this long? To just play with my heart? I feel like since day one I have been trying to prove my worth to someone who will never see it. Time and time again he has made me feel worthless and chose other people and other things over me. How do you let go of someone you feel is apart of your soul? How do you make it through when you are physically sick when you aren't with them? How do you come to terms with someone not loving you when you love them?
PegNosePete Posted November 17, 2015 Posted November 17, 2015 You do not speak, email, text, facebook or write to him ever again. Block him out of your life in every way possible. If necessary get a restraining order and call the police if he comes near you. That's a start. Then you begin the long, painful process of healing. Just remember that whatever you're going through, at the end of it, you will be happier than you have ever been in your life.
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