LooperDooper Posted November 16, 2015 Posted November 16, 2015 In an inspiring mood and needed to share. I am lonely as hell at the moment due to being temporarily disabled so can't go to school, can't go out with ease and I happen to live alone. While I've done just about everything I can to help my mind, it does sometimes get depressing and it does sometimes makes me wish I was in a relationship. However the other 99% of the time I'm in an extremely good mood and loving life regardless... Anyways, I don't know if it's because my situation has made me thoughtful or what, but I am completely over my ex (been for awhile but now I'm 100% sure of it) and I get this feeling that I am so ready to love again with my entire heart like I've never done before. It's very weird, it's like I want a girl who will love me unconditionally and I embrace the fact that I am not an easy guy to fall in love or be loved. But I use that to say to myself that it just means the day it comes for real, it's going to be special and it'll be like nothing I've felt before. I have come to love my flaws, I've come to be content with living alone and perhaps not as accompanied as I'd like, but I'm ready to withhold as much time as it is necessary until I find somebody who I can actually feel something for. I honestly believe my next relationship, whenever it'll be, is going to be strong and full of honesty and love. I think I've grown emotionally, I think I've matured and I think I've had enough time alone and specifically away from relationships to know what I want. I want a girl who accepts me for who I am. I want somebody who inspires me and is right there by my side during my falls and during my triumphs. I want a person who no matter what will be honest with me and will tell me all the good, the bad and the ugly. I've come to realize what part of me needs to open up to let a relationship blossom, because I do have insecurity issues from pasts relationships that may have creeped into other relationships. I am secure, I am happy, I am confident. And I am so ready to love so much more than I have in the past. I can only think the next person who falls for me is literally going to see the best side of me emotionally I have ever seen and heck she may be the luckiest person to experience it. Now I need to feel that with the person as well. Thank you to all of those who read, just needed to vent my inspiration and my new found hope, joy and gratitude. Everything we experience, from the hurt to the more hurt and to the happiness, can only bring you back up and into a world where you value yourself for who you are. I value what I am, who I can be, and what I'm going to complement my life with and with whom. There is always a light, just manage to find a way to see it.
Shanex Posted November 16, 2015 Posted November 16, 2015 (edited) It didnt take me too much time to heal from my last (years ago) Relationship, but it did take me time to trust women again because of the negative crap that went down during the breakup with my ex. Personally I think its best to wait for a quality partner, rather than switching every couple weeks. Of course theres the loneliness whether you work or are in school, if you live alone you spend most weeks evening by yourself hence got hours free for... Online dating? Internet? LS? Video games? Tv? Etc... Im in the same situation so I can relate, Im not desperate though. Ive been on multiple single phases that lasted for years and eventually got back in Relationship. Edited November 16, 2015 by Shanex
Redfisher Posted November 16, 2015 Posted November 16, 2015 Very touching....talk like that around a nice girl and she'll melt like butter...
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