benjaminrichard Posted November 15, 2015 Posted November 15, 2015 I don't really know how to start, or how to explain the whole situation. Basically, I live in university halls in London since end of September. In the beginning, I didn't really know a lot of people, but eventually, I got to know a decent group of people that I became friends with. One of them is this girl that I started to like. I would see her two or three times a week, together with the others, but I have never met her alone. Sometimes, she and her best friend would just knock on my door and stay at mine for a few hours, and we would just chill together. I don't remember when exactly I got a crush on her, and I can't even say why it's her that I like. I think she's sending me mixed signals, and it really makes me unsure about what I should do. For example, she's very touchy, leaning onto my shoulder or putting her legs over mine, but she's doing that with the other guys at the halls as well. She's also teasing me (I think), like once she asked me if I could carry her on my back and then she would hold onto my neck and lean back, or she punches me on the arm or stomach or anywhere. She also makes mean comments about me at times. Moreover, and I know that sounds weird, she started a twitter account where she posts jokes I makeor funny things I say. She really likes my jokes and remembers pretty much everything I ever said. Also, I have the impression that she's happy when she sees me. One time, she said "do you think you're cute" with a smile and in the way that I would formulate a rhetorical question. Sometimes, when we're with the others, she stares into my eyes for several seconds. A few weeks ago, when she and her best friend were at my room, she asked if I had a girlfriend, and later that night, she asked me if there was a girl that I liked... I replied no one really at the moment, and idk if that was the right thing to say. Sometimes, when she comes to my room, she'll wear my clothes, and once she even tried on my motorcycle helmet. Two weeks ago, however, she's sent me a snap of a facebook photo of me and a really attractive friend of mine from over a year ago, asking me who that guy's name was (he wasn't tagged in the picture). Also, I've only seen her once in the last ten days or so, like every time our group hangs out in the halls she says she's tired or busy or whatever and doesn't come by. Also, last thursday, I was standing outside of the halls to smoke with two female friends (E and S) when another girl, let's call her K, came by (she's not really part of our group but has been out with us) and the first thing she said was something like "and, have you already asked X out?". I was surprised and said I didn't know what she meant and K replied that it was obvious we liked each other. When she was gone, my two female friends seemed surprised, too, and wanted to know if i liked her (they are good friends of my crush). And I said that I liked her a bit. I know that this was really childish and stupid of me but I couldn't completely lie in that moment and say no but I also didn't wanna completely admit it. Later that night I asked K why she thinks my crush likes me, and she said that always when she sees my crush and the other girls, my crush would say something about me or bring my name up. Also, they'd been out without me a week before, and they had talked about the guys in the dorm. When my name came up, she appareantly turned red or so, and K said she could see my crush liked me then. And she said her friends would know and annoy her with the fact that she likes me. But I also talked to S later on, who's better friends with my crush. It was really confusing since she said she wasn't sure if my crush liked me or not. She said she didn't remember the conversation at the club, for example. The only thing she did say was that when she came by my crush's best friend's room, the door was not really closed and she heard them talk about me, and her best friend appareantly brought up that my crush should date me. While both E and S said they didn't tell my crush or her best friend about what K said and all that, I think they may actually have told her. It's difficult to explain, but I feel like my crush did drop a hint that she knows. It's just the fact that I've only seen her once in more than a week that makes me feel like she doesn't like me the way I like her and that she maybe tries to avoid me. Also, I'm thinking that I've maybe waited too long with asking her out, maybe she's dating someone now and I didn't take the chance. Maybe she had interest in me a few weeks ago and lost it by now. Like she'd offered to cook for me like over three weeks ago but hasn't done it yet. Also, she hasn't really texted me and sometimes taken really long to answer. On the other hand side, I had bought her a new lipstick last week because I'd broken one a month ago. I asked her about what exact lipstick it was when I was in New York to visit my parents, but I didn't end up buying it there. I bought it at the beginning of last week in Oxford Street in London, and I made a photo of that street and added it to my snapchat story. The same evening, I sent her a photo of the lipstick I bought as proof that I got it, because she always said she wouldn't believe me I already bought it. And a few days l hear from her friend S that my crush is annoyed because she thinks I lied to her. She somehow made the connection and figured out where I bought it. Although this may sound crazy, I was happy about the fact that she put time in thinking about this, that she cared and that she would discuss it with her friends, because I somehow think that this is a positive sign. Then again, I realize that I lose myself in way too much detail and that I'm overthinking the whole thing. Somehow it never relly works for me if I have feelings for a girl because I start caring and I start thinking too much and waiting too long because I'm scared of getting rejected. With girls that I don't care about, I'm actually quite succesful. In fact, I know that while I'm not a topmodel, I am definitely attractive, and I've gotten with girls that are hotter than she is. But in this case, that doesn't give me any self-confidence. Her recent behaviour confuses me. I need to see her alone at a date or whatever because I think she's one of those people who always behave differently when they're in a group and when they're alone, and I want to get to know that other side of her as well. But idk when and how this should happen, it just seems mre and more unlikely by now. There are only four or five weeks left until christmas holidays start and I leave to New York again. I know that if there should be any chance that this works out, I need to take it to another level before Christmas. Please tell me what to think and give me advice on what I should do.
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