Confusedguy90 Posted November 13, 2015 Posted November 13, 2015 (edited) Hi Everyone, I just wanted to share my story and get some of the feelings off my chest. I've found keeping them bottled up the worse thing to do and I think friends are getting exhausted with what seems like constant doom and gloom on my part. I was with my ex for 4 years and then he left me out of the blue. I moved cities when I was 19 and set up on my own. New job, friends and life etc. I was happy on my own until I finally met someone. We met when I was 21 and he was 32 (11 years older). We met on a night out, went on a few dates and then eventually got together. Everything was perfect. We eventually moved in together, went on holidays etc. We were totally in love and made for each other. I was completely 100% in love with this guy. Fast forward a few more years ... I find him texting other guys and sending naked pictures - he would have cheated on me within a matter of weeks. I confronted him about this and then he said they were just friends and went to work. I was in complete shock. He came home that night and left me. All he said was "I don't love you the same way anymore, i'm not happy, this isn't what I want and i'm leaving". BANG - packed a bag and left me. I found out afterwards that he had been unhappy for 6 months +, but just failed to tell me? For all that time I was madly in love and so happy. I didn't want him to leave and made it clear how much i loved him. I wrote him a seven page letter, sent emails, rang him, left voice messages to be completely ignored and told "I've made my mind up about this, im not coming back". I have come to realize over the following months that most of what he had told me over the years about his past were all lies. Large portions of his story were edited to portray him in a better light & previous relationships always finished cause 'it was the other persons fault'. Since the break up we did speak for around 2/3 weeks afterwards (going against the NC rule), however he was just nasty to me each time and said he "wanted to be left alone" and said he had done all of this cause he "guessed he was bored". Since him leaving me I've been through hell. I lost my home, my deposit, had to sell our car, move back to my hometown, move home again, unable to eat etc etc. I have come out of this feeling so alone and lost cause i gave so much of myself to this relationship that I don't even know who i am anymore. I feel tricked and deceived most of all - I actually believed i would be with this guy forever (or so he told me). I feel like I didnt deserve to be treated like - im a good person and ill I ever did was love and care for this guy with all of my being. I only stopped being sick everyday around three weeks ago. I feel constantly anxious and low. Its been four months since this all happened and im starting to slowly feel normal again. Being around friends and family has helped loads, but i cant seem to put my finger on whats next? Edited November 13, 2015 by Confusedguy90
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