Iceshowers Posted November 11, 2015 Posted November 11, 2015 A little background info: I was in an almost 6 year relationship with my baby's father, but about/over 3 years of it, I have been emotionally, mentally, financially out. I stayed in the relationship mostly for the sake of my baby, and to better my financials, but we were pretty much like roommates. I did try to salvage the relationship before I physically moved and left the relationship. Anyways, for the last 3yrs of my relationship, there was no kissing, hugging, snuggling, talks, trust, loyalty, or anything that made up a relationship. After I left, I had 2 fwb (which were just there for sexual needs, nothing else. Like literally, not even cuddling lol) and then dated 1 guy for 3 months. The guy I dated went ghost on me last week, and eventhough I know this guy won't ever get a second chance from me, I can't help to miss the feelings. Since it's been so long since I had companionship, cuddles, kisses, the conversations, and wanting to be with someone, I miss it so much. It's like he gave me a little taste, but I want more bites. And it's not like I lead a boring life or need more activities to keep me busy. I work 40-hrs a week, go to college full time, have a 4 year old, just bought a house and I'm currently remodeling it, exercise a couple of times a week and go socialize when I can. But I can't shake the feeling of wanting someone next to me in my life. I can't seem to want to forget the feeling of when I slept cuddling in the arms of this guy. I'm guilty to even say the thought of reaching out to him just to say hi has crossed my mind, but haven't acted upon it. Again, it's not like I want HIM but what I felt. Is this a normal feeling? I don't believe I ever experienced something like this before. But then again, I haven't been in a loveless relationship with a man I really don't like for so long before.
Dylon Posted November 12, 2015 Posted November 12, 2015 The worst time to get yourself in an emotional mess is when you feel needy. Of course don't reach out to father that you don't want to have a future with. 6 years was a long time but 3 years of nothing at the end is the bigger take home lesson. Love finds you when you are least expected. You seem to be very busy so lots of things going. Find time for yourself...hang with friends or just learn to be happy so doing some things by yourself. You will be surprised one day how someone just ends up next to you in bed one day. That someone will want you and not that you need him just because you need a body next to you.
Author Iceshowers Posted November 12, 2015 Author Posted November 12, 2015 (edited) The worst time to get yourself in an emotional mess is when you feel needy. Of course don't reach out to father that you don't want to have a future with. 6 years was a long time but 3 years of nothing at the end is the bigger take home lesson. Love finds you when you are least expected. You seem to be very busy so lots of things going. Find time for yourself...hang with friends or just learn to be happy so doing some things by yourself. You will be surprised one day how someone just ends up next to you in bed one day. That someone will want you and not that you need him just because you need a body next to you. Well it's not the father of my child that I would've reached out to. I only talk to him when needed for our son. It's the ******* who gosted on me, but which I experienced the intimacy and feelings that I haven't had in so long, due to my loveless relationship. I mean, I won't be reaching out to the guy either. Edited November 12, 2015 by Iceshowers
Michelle ma Belle Posted November 12, 2015 Posted November 12, 2015 It's VERY normal to want companionship sweetie, especially a single parent working hard to provide for her little family. Mama needs some lovin' too after all Don't despair. Remain steadfast in what you're doing for you and your child. Be discerning about who you let into your life and into your heart. Remain soft and never let those bad experiences (or any other) harden you. Learn from them instead. When the time is right Mr. Right will appear ready to hug the hell out of you
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