johnplacement Posted November 6, 2015 Posted November 6, 2015 (edited) Hello everyone today, Hope everybody we can coping this feeling and we can getting out of this soon for good. We deserve happiness too! Short story, (looks long) My ex 24 and I 26 in that time, we meet online we were LDR (I know LDR never work out most of the cases) so I visit her first twice to see her and meet her after many attempts she never saw me, she was an amazing woman she is intelligent intellectual, she is a successful teacher, she always get promotions at work, she make you laughing even when you're sad, she was faithful gf no doubt I have to recognize her qualities after that. After a while she just got cold, some cool offs and after a while we break, she was with "new friends", hang out, Friday night drinking and parties. Looks like she likes that life, she used not been like that she used be going to church, eat with family, had religious friends, focus in her health but people I think change to be popular or been social acceptable or coping the saddened we can't be together well anyways. We break up after a year, so she closed her Facebook temporary after a year she re-opened and she meet someone else, I was really surprised because I was googled the name of her new bf and for my surprise the guy never went to see her but instead she went to see him. I felt really bad because I was nice to her, always caring Skype I did above and beyond to try to relocate there but without any hope to get a visa work. She posted hate pictures looks with his new be (you know the look of girls when want show their exes she is happy to have bf "you see you see in your face John I found someone else better than you I went to see him") So I felt terrible, betrayed and used. Well so I continue my life isn't bad but is not perfect as well, after the break of 4 years almost I never dated or looking anyone I just don't feeling I Just was hoping my ex growing up mentally and see the qualities I have as man who loved her. Since the break up with her I don't open Facebook just every 6 to 9 months to see what things news features have Facebook to update my profile I don't care anymore. So she break up with this guy in March of this year because I saw her timeline so I was like ok fine (but always hoping she will contact me one of this days) so I open Facebook yesterday and I found she is with a new guy but this time the guy lives in the same country she lives so she have a real relationship. I think she realized LDR need committed both parties, patient and mutual help. I think she lacks of that qualities I don't criticism her but it's what it's. I'm not saying I'm perfect I have my flaws like impatient and some bad temper. Thanks for reading, have time and understand my non native English speaker hahaha I just feel sad you know today at work I felt terrible I was just this day finish and come to home to rest my mind. I feel like where is Karma? I mean she seem she have the habit to break up the guys firsts. And life isn't give her what she deserve.... I know sounds contradictory statements about I love her, caring about her and even I'm still have feeling for her. But in the other hand I wanna she take a lesson not play with feeling with people around her. I mean how is feel this ex bf of my ex? He will feel terrible she is not even give time to coping she is Ike after 2 months of break and she find someone else new and showing the same pictures of (you see you see I found someone else better than you) with her last ex bf or I I don't know for which one. Is like also she is showing me she isn't given up to find her armor knight make her happy and she is showing us like we were so bad persons. I just feel she is just a spoil rotten girl. I was reading some cases after 15 years exes back to talk with their exes because they didn't even any idea what they loose a good man/woman, and they growing up mentally and emotionally. I was just wondering how I will feel after if my ex will talk to me after 10 years or more or even we will meet again....how I will feel.... I just want sometimes move on but I can't I don't feel meet someone else. I just focus in my job, goals, read 1 or 2 books a week, stay fit, hobbies But after be tired at work and focus in myself when I'm in the edge of my bed when I back to my house I really wished my ex will be next to me give me a hug and warm kiss how important I'm in her life...is just sad you know...sometimes when I sat down to eat my meal before to going to bed I wished she be there eat together will be nicer. Geezzz...oh boy.....Ok I really wishing miracles can happen like she realize stuffs.... I would love heard your opinion, hate, love advices or anything come out in your mind and share it. Thanks for read it Edited November 6, 2015 by johnplacement
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