Jeremykyle95 Posted November 4, 2015 Posted November 4, 2015 (edited) I'm a 20 year old male who recently has broken up (kinda) with my girlfriend of 2 years. She was my first love and the person I lost my virginity to. First let me give you background on our breakup. We were having an argument where she was crying and saying I don't believe in her and think she can't achieve anything, I tried to reassure that I do believe she is a capable person and that I think highly of her (which I genuinely do) but she would not believe me. I ended up suggesting we break up (which I immensely regret) and she said fine. A week later and she had been on a date with a guy and had sex with him that night. 2 weeks after the break up and she told me she loved me and only did it to try get over me but it didn't work. I am madly in love with her and in all honesty would love for us to be back together and start over. But she's very hot and cold with me and one second we're cuddling and the next she's mad at me over a small thing. I am extremely heartbroken, depressed and suicidal. I genuinely feel like life is not worth living anymore. I don't know what's going on between us but we live in the same shared house at university which makes things very complicated. I have no idea what's going on between us or what I should do, I just feel frantic separation anxiety and extremely depressed. Any help would be appreciated. Edited November 4, 2015 by Jeremykyle95
Ruby Slippers Posted November 4, 2015 Posted November 4, 2015 If you're depressed and suicidal, seek counseling through your university and keep in mind there are hotlines you can call. During my first breakup, I felt like the world was falling apart. I think it's normal to feel very emotional and totally out of sorts the first time you go through a breakup from someone you love. Time is a healer. I don't know if your relationship is salvageable. After my first love and I broke up, we kept getting back together to try again, then failing. Years later, we've both well moved on and are distantly friendly. For now, I suggest you talk to close friends and family about what you're going through, how you're feeling. Life is full of tests, and your support system is there to help you get through these hard times. Hang in there. Breakups always suck. I think the first is often the worst. 1
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