imtrying211 Posted October 29, 2015 Posted October 29, 2015 It's been a while since I've posted, anyone who would like a more detailed version of my "story", you can check out old threads. A quick catch up, it's been almost 7 months since the breakup. Ex left me for his ex after we were together for a little over a year. We work in the same building, so still see each other on a regular basis. We would occasionally talk at work, mostly initiated by him. We'd never about us, just life, work, other BS. Needless to say this communication has not helped my healing process at all. I probably cried everyday for the first 4.5 months, then had a few weeks where I was feeling good, thought I was finally moving on. Then out of nowhere the constant sadness returned, and I was right back to square one. Besides my ex and I still talking, I was also guilty of checking his GF's social media pages, which are public. I know, stupid move! So, I guess I've basically been delaying my own healing and causing my own pain. I had been going back and forth for months about telling him that I don't think we should talk anymore. I knew it was the best thing to do, but I didn't want to give up, didn't want to lose him from my life. Well yesterday I finally found the courage to tell him! I figured only my fellow loveshackers would understand what a big deal that is, and how hard it was for me to do. His reaction was what I was afraid it would be, which was basically "that's fine, I don't care". I didn't give him an explanation, but debated all night on whether or not to email him and tell him why I made this decision. I know I don't owe him anything, and keep telling myself over and over, "there's no point, he doesn't care". I'll keep telling myself that for as long as I need to. What's done is done. For those of you just starting out, please, please, please go no contact and stay no contact!! I regret not doing that from the start. I feel stupid for still feeling this much pain after all this time. Trying to hold onto to someone that has already let you go only prolongs your suffering. I wish I had listened to the people on here, but I guess I had to learn the hard way. 1
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