ktazy Posted October 28, 2015 Posted October 28, 2015 The story begins when we met when he was a assistant teacher for one of my classes. Ever since we met we have had really strong feelings towards one another, but we colt d not date until I graduated because the teacher he was an assistant for was his mom, and it would deem to be inappropriate. and she would have gone bat**** crazy. A month before I graduated we had already started to date. The following 4 months carried the happiest four months of my life so far. But by the beginning of fall had already decided before our relationship to take a year abroad to Brazil. After 5 months into our relationship being long distance, we had broken up. He was going through too much stress at school, and I was having major issues with the program I was traveling with. It felt like we both lived two different worlds, but all we wanted was each other. After coming home a couple months after we broke up and re entering into "home". He started to contact me. My first week back at home I went to a baseball game and my family had said they had seen him, my heart dropped, and it felt so weird being in the same area as him after months of us being miles apart. I didn't see him at then game. As we continued to talk I was still hurt by our relationship. It was something so real to me. As we continued to talk it felt like we wanted to get back together, but we also thought it wasn't the best. I want him to focus on school and be happy, without me stressing him out, etc. Knowing his background so well, i want him to be the best he can and get the education he deserves. But back to our relationship, As i brought up the future to him one night. " What do you want in our future?" He said " I don't want to promise you of me saying yes to us being together or saying no and closing the doors on this". But this has left me with what then? there is no lead to it. Since then we have become friends, but sometimes i overreact on situations and stop talking to him for a couple months, and we become better again. We want each other in our lives. It just hurts so much, because it was something real, and i just don't know what to do from here. My current job I work with a lot of men and is a personal stylist for men. Im surrounded by them, but i don't see to be attracted to them, wanting to connect if i can put it that way. My ex, is always popping up in my mind on the daily. Please help as to what my next steps should be, i feel like I'm just stuck in a rut.
jalapeno86 Posted October 28, 2015 Posted October 28, 2015 I'm in no place to give advice. I've been in love with someone who doesn't love me for a long time. If it's too hard, and you guys are fighting, and he's not sure, there's only two ways to go... neither is easy. Either you can fight for the relationship, ask for certainty, and make up. But, it seems like that would super hard, full of more pain while - you can choose to move on. But, like you said. You think of him all the time. I think about my ex all the time too. I know she's bad for me, I just haven't accepted it.
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