purpledooze Posted October 28, 2015 Posted October 28, 2015 (edited) I'm emotional right now. So this message (I quit my job so I want to at least say goodbye or something) won't sound the same to him or others. Let me know what you think. Yes, I know I shouldn't send it. Maybe I won't. Maybe I will. I just need opinions on how this message comes off. First of all, I didn’t mean to be combative when I asked about the FB thing. I didn’t mean to make you out to be a creep or stalker. If anybody’s going to stalk me, might as well be an ex. I was just curious. My best friend and I had this talk. He made me realize that you’ve risked more for me than anyone ever has and it was selfish of me to assume, even though I wasn’t aware I was doing it, that you would carry the weight of our relationship alone. He said that although my intentions were to be your partner, what happened was that I took even your efforts for granted and squandered the gifts you gave me. I didn’t listen to your advice because my ego got in the way. And that’s why you left. I felt that the only way you could treat me like an equal or respect me was if I did things without your advice. Although that doesn’t justify your bigger faults, it meant I became too much of a burden on you. I’ve known since the day I hugged you from behind in the elevator at Eton that I may not be able to catch up. I remember you asking me why I looked so sad. I wanted to be able to add value to your life or bring something to the table, but I didn’t know how or what. You asked me if I wanted to live in the city and I did. After that, I searched for jobs near the area and found one at Wells Fargo. The night after Densha, the night I found out you were moving back in with your ex, I was set for an interview that week. I never went because I didn’t see the point -- I was going back to my old town. I wish you had shouted at me the night you walked out the door. I would have wanted you to say “get a job because you’re becoming a drag” and that would have shaken me and that would have been exactly what I needed that time. You told me once you wanted to exit my life knowing you made a positive difference. And you did. Never have I met anyone who’s made me realize I need to make better choices in life as much as you did. That I need to face parts of me that I was always afraid of seeing. You were the best thing that’s ever happened to me in a long time and because of my mistakes I lost you. Please don’t give up on me just yet. I’ll bring that girl back. Edited October 28, 2015 by purpledooze
CarrieT Posted October 28, 2015 Posted October 28, 2015 Yep. Your last line screams, "I am going to change I am to be the person you want me to be." It all sounds drama-filled and unnecessary. Best to just move on.
Tayla Posted October 28, 2015 Posted October 28, 2015 Yep. Your last line screams, "I am going to change I am to be the person you want me to be." It all sounds drama-filled and unnecessary. Best to just move on. yeah..... what she said. I second that advice.
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