BrokenNC817 Posted October 26, 2015 Posted October 26, 2015 I am absolutely miserable. He didn't want to try anymore. I wanted to try and make things work. I did so much over the course of our relationship, being there for him physically, emotionally, financially through all his health issues over the last couple years. And it all just crashed and burned so quickly. Just two months ago, he was introducing my mom as his future mother in law to coworkers (we work together at a school), and so quickly he just wouldn't even talk to me. It is so hard to see him at school, even though I really see him for maybe 20 minutes total the whole day. All I want to do is hug him, and kiss him and talk to him. He did such a 180 in his personality.... our coworkers have even said things about how he has been so different this year. I am literally heartbroken. I hurt so much I feel like I am in physical pain. I don't want to get out of bed most days.... How do you go from wanting to spend your life with someone to not even talking to them? I just want my life back, I want things to be ok again... and I know at some point they will be, but I just don't feel like it right now. I'm miserable and heartbroken.....
makemineamac Posted October 27, 2015 Posted October 27, 2015 (edited) So sorry you are feeling this way. It hurts really bad I know. You'll get lots of great help here. Listen and follow the great advice people offer and it will help get you to a better place. How did this come to happen? Why did he change? Any idea? You need to focus on you right now and just breathe. I know that sounds simple, but just try it and see if you can feel a little better. I have been where you are. Totally devastated by the loss of a future together, and trying to resume your life after such a shock is hard, but we learn that we have to try and keep moving forward - just a little bit at a time - and you eventually will be able to move a little more, then more. You can get out of this I promise you. It might not seem that way now, but you can do it. Nothing hurts like heartache like this. Nothing. I wish you peace, others will be here soon. Edited October 27, 2015 by makemineamac Spelling
Author BrokenNC817 Posted October 28, 2015 Author Posted October 28, 2015 How did this come to happen? Why did he change? Any idea? He was still friends with someone who was an ex of his... and when this ex left for bootcamp.. he realized how much he missed and love them. My (ex :'( )fiance said that he just needs to be alone, that he needs to figure himself out, what he really wants in life. He told me that he doesn't deserve to be happy. He had even had thoughts of kiilling himself the past few weeks. He's had a lot of health issues lately as well (diabetes (which was rough mentally on him), constant physical pain, depression runs on both sides of his family). ANd everytime we went to a Dr or Specialist, the only thing they would tell him is its his diabetes, and send him on his way with more pills (that he hated) to manage the pain, when all they did was just take the edge off for awhile.
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