What do I feel?

[london2015]

I am writing on here instead of messaging the ex so grateful for responses!!

 

It has been over a month now of NC as per my other posts..She broke up with me however we had 'threatened' and 'agreed' in the heat of the argument at the time it was best to break up..She just kept her side of the deal whilst I thought it was another example of a mutually empty threat to each other and something we would patch up the next day..

 

I did so much for her - support her through extremely tough work and personal times and would always get a 'i dont think I'm good enough for you' or 'sorry i can't offer the same back' or 'why are you this nice to me' comment from her every so often. I guess I didnt register these comments whilst in the relationship and instead just continued with making sure she felt loved and wanted..

 

However we still argued a lot and I had to put up with something I had never dealt with before in a relationship - continued conversations, image swapping (of things in their lives not of each other) with her exes..Now I'm not the jealous type but we were together only 6 months and just felt in the first couple of months the exes could be put at bay until we worked out how we feel about each other - you know?

 

Anyway in summary we haven't had contact in a month, i did the normal begging and pleading for a couple of weeks straight after the break up but always as a result of her starting the conversation...

 

NC has been great although I have had to delete instagram (she blocked me on Facebook) at the start of NC to make sure I wasn't seeing her photos pop up on my phone..

 

what to do!?!?!

[PegNosePete]

What to do? Block her back on FB so if she unblocks you, she's still blocked.

Then block her on everything else.

 

Then start living your life free of your ex!!

[Realitycol]

I'd like to recommend this post http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/554887-i-walked-away-feel-great