I broke up with my ex girlfriend, and I still have feelings for her.

[mcor10]

I wanted to vent, and it seems like this is a good place to do so anonymously. I'll try to make this as short as possible. I was dating this girl for almost two years, and like every relationship, it had it's ups and downs. I left my home state to be with this girl, so I feel kind of helpless in this new state. The last month of our relationship, things weren't so good. The last two weeks went bad. She became distant, and called/texted less. I was a beta male in the relationship, and she told me that there needed to be a balance in the relationship. As she got more distant, I asked her what was going on, and I asked her if she liked anyone else. She said yes, but that she was confused. I entered panic mode, and I did some stalking and was being weak. I saw on her FB some guy flirting with her, and she didn't stop it, it kept going. This was all while she was being distant from me. I asked her parents for advice, and they gave me decent advice. Then I started questioning her, and she became very defensive, and got mad by my behavior. When I saw her, she was on her phone the whole time, giggling and smiling while she texted someone else, I asked for her to show me her phone, she refused, and it kept on for a few more minutes. I asked her again, and she refused. I got so angry that I broke up with her. But an hour later I felt regret, and I asked her to get back. She said no. We talked for the next three days or so, and I kept telling her that I love her, and that I want us to be back. She said she loved me too, but needed time, so I gave her that. I went into NC, and three weeks later, I invited her to a date, she refused. I sincerely apologized to her trough text since she refused to see me. I went back to NC, and attempted taking her out again three weeks later, and once again she refused. I went to NC contact once again, but I saw her about a month later, and I broke NC to talk to her, which was dumb of me, and asked her to the school dance. She refused. She was cold and distant the whole time. Every time I asked her out, I left the door open by telling her to call me if she changes her mind. She hasn't contacted me. I am back to NC. A week ago, her best friend told me that she said she doesn't love me anymore, and the same day, a mutual friend of ours, and a close friend of mine, said that he has seen her PDA with another guy. I feel like I gave her what she wanted. She has made no attempt to try to reach out to me. I still have feelings for her, and I have been working on myself during NC. I'm back in college. I've lost 19 pounds, I have a better job, and new friends. I don't know what to do. My family and friends tell me to move on, and I am trying, it's just a bit too hard. Any advice?

 

I have not once talked bad about her after the break up, and I have always wished her the best. It just sucks that she is seeing someone else so quickly, and got over me. I know she is a good person, but she hasn't tried to talk things through. She didn't reply to my apology. I've been told by friends that maybe she wanted us to break up, but she didn't want to do it.

Edited October 24, 2015 by mcor10

[sandylee1]

She's not interested in you, so I suggest you go NC and block her number so you can move on with your life. Her actions show that she has a new interest and has long checked out of the relationship.

 

Go out and make new friends.