Kristine Posted October 21, 2015 Posted October 21, 2015 I'm having a rough day emotionally. I know being away from him is best for me in basically every way possible, but why I did I fall in love with him? I never really could figure it out. Maybe I'm romanticizing things. I just don't even know how I feel right now. It would never work out even if he were to come running back (not likely), too much damage has been done. But damn, I hate being like this. I can't even get with another guy because I'm trying to be a descent human being and not sack up with another until the divorce is final for one. I feel like a hopeless case in life. Financial ruin, 3 failed marriages, the list grows and grows. I want to pull the plug so badly, but I have such a strong belief system the last thing I want to do is anger God even more than I may have already. This song sums up he and I.
BrokenManAgain Posted October 21, 2015 Posted October 21, 2015 Our measure, dear lady, is not when things go right but when things go wrong.
Author Kristine Posted October 21, 2015 Author Posted October 21, 2015 So true. 1 thing I did right, birth control. I'm so glad I listened to my mom there, IUD. My body didn't like it but I am so relieved I can cut all ties. Even OB doc says I have a lot of eggs for my age. Family members had kids in mid 40's and even mid 50's. One thing I did right. One. 1
loveiswar101 Posted October 21, 2015 Posted October 21, 2015 Hey, don't know story, just a flying visit. But.... 1. Don't beat yourself up.....You are who you are, what happening now is real...ONLY YOU CAN CHANGE IT ! 2. Take in what you write....."it will never work".....TURN YOUR BACK THEN, BE STRONG, MOVE ON. 3. Nothing wrong with being a decent human being and emotional....decent human being - isn't this what everyone wants and as for being emotional.....I BELIEVE I'M THE MOST EMOTIONAL MALE ON PLANET AT TIMES...BUT A GOOD FRIEND TELL ME IT AN AWESOME TRAIT...IT MEANS YOU CARE. Ok with that out the way, go have shower and step out refreshed. Then write a list of what you want and don't want. ' On the want list put dates and time frames. ie Holiday 6 months give up smoking 3 months. pay debt 12 months etc Focus on these NOW.TOMORROW.THE DAY AFTER. NEXT WEEK. Put the don't want list on your fridge upside down. When feeling down turn it over read it, accept it, make sure none of those items happen... I'm still in a mess 6 months on, but I say this I'm getting a little bit stronger everyday and so will YOU :-)
xxoo Posted October 21, 2015 Posted October 21, 2015 Focus on your daughter. She needs her mom, loves her mom!
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