My girlfriend broke up with me cause she isn't happy with her life, she lovesme still

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So, i'll start with the details. We have been together for only a little bit more than 3 months, you might be laughing now, i know 3 months don't sound serious at all, but we were moving pretty fast, she actually left her boyfriend she had been with for a year to be with me, she really loved me, i could feel it, it was hard for her to leave her boyfriend but she did it all for me, cause what we had was so strong and beautiful. She was happy, she said that to me very often.

 

I left town for three days: Thursday, Friday and Saturday. We were alright, she met with a friend on Thursday i told her to have fun, she answered: I won't, i miss you. She texted me again near midnight, told me she was sad, told me she felt she wasn't living the life she wanted, i answered with very long texts trying to make her feel better, we also talked on the telephone, she told me i was a very good person, she even said she wished she was as good as me. The next day we didn't talk much but only because i was very busy.

 

She texted me several times telling me she loved me, she was even complaining that i couldn't answer. At night we talked and texted, she asked me to stay awake with her until she fell asleep, she always tells me to do so when she's sad or scared for some reason, of course i did. On Saturday i was on my way back, i called her, she was still sleeping but answered anyway, i told her to go back to sleep and to call me when she would wake up, she texted me an hour later, i called her but she didn't answer, she said she was brushing her teeth, i told her once again to call me, she said she would after she finished doing some things, i waited, texted her a sad face after an hour or two.

 

I started to get in a bad mood, i had been on the bus for five hours or so, i was bored and hungry, i wanted to talk to her, i told her once again to call me, she said she was eating and asked if i needed to say something, i answered rudely: "No bye enjoy" i arrived at my destination, i texted her again rudely: "I arrived, I waited all day for your call" she said she was doing homework. We started arguing, it wasn't that important that she didn't call me, i was just in a bad mood but the argument escalated, I even said i thought she didn't cared about me. It was so stupid, but i was thinking it would pass, we would see each other at night and forget everything, we never really fight.

 

But out of nowhere she told me she thought this wasn't going to work out, that she loved me, that i was a very good person, an unbelievable person, that i deserved great things, but at the moment she couldn't give me those things cause she wasn't happy with her life, she wanted to find herself and she wanted freedom for that, she wasn't feeling free. I was shocked, thunderstruck, just the day before we were making plans to travel together, (we always do) we talked every single day all the time, suddenly she doesn't want that anymore, i thought of a thousand things to say but i just said. "I love you too"

 

That was the last thing i said to her, i knew it was useless to ask for further explanations or to beg not to leave at that moment, so i just said that. A while later she texted me and said something kinda strange: "I love you so much, i hope you are very happy, and if you still want to go with me to Sedona, well, i'm here." I didn't answer. I still don't get it. Why she said that last thing? because she thought about our planned trip and thought: "damn, i ruined it, i still want that trip"; or because she thought: "poor kid, he had been planning that trip for so long"? That trip would have been or will be on 2 months on December. So, obviously she didn't break up cause of our little insignificant argument, that only triggered it.

 

Then i want to know, was she planning to break up with me already, or she just got too carried away and is now regretting it? However, i haven't talked to him, i know i have to stay away, make her miss me, whatever, but for how long? it's barely been 24 hours, should i wait for her to text or call me, but what if she doesn't? what if even if she misses, cause i'm sure she will, soon if not already, she doesn't approach cause she thinks that's worse for me? Should we meet now and talk about it, because we really didn't it was so fast and sudden.

 

Maybe we should talk first, maybe she will tell me she was just angry and carried away, and doesn't really wants to break up; maybe she won't say any of these things, and then, only after i'm sure she really wants to break up, i will get away so she'll miss me? So basically, the question is, should i apply the no contact rule right now, or only after i talk to her and i'm sure she doesn't want me?

 

Other details: she had a rough week, college was very tough for her that week, her parents had a huge fight on monday, the same day she was in a car accident, and one last detail, the reason i was away this weekend, is im getting a job in a city that's four hours away from where we actually lives, but that didn't bothered her so much, we said we would see each other every weekend and she was even excited for all the things we would do together on her visits. Thank You all

Edited October 19, 2015 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
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