Author johnbarnz Posted November 10, 2015 Author Posted November 10, 2015 Yes, she dumped me and honestly at first i did all the chasing and stuff i shouldnt have. Then it was her when i didnt want her back. We havent even went a full week of no talking.
Author johnbarnz Posted November 10, 2015 Author Posted November 10, 2015 What i have learned through all this is when something like this happenens you just need to deal with it and move forward without the other person. I have made my life hell for the last couple months, hoping and wishing things were different but theyre not! Now she wants to be with me forever but i dont. The way she treated me and what she did seemed forgivable because i was hurting so bad but now that shes hurting and wants me back and i have talked to her/seen her i have realized that what she did isnt just going to go away. Yeah things might be good now but im sure all the same stuff is going to come rushing back and im just going to go through this all over again. She isnt going to change and i wouldnt expect her to because im not going to ether. I came to terms that i was a great boyfriend and friend to her. And she does not deserve me for even one more second. Its time for me to start acting like a man. Even if she finds someone else i really dont care! If im single for a long time i dont care. Because when i do find that right person i will be more happy then i ever was. I might feel good when im with her but im wasting both of our time when i dont see a future with this girl! I know that if she can do this to me once she will do it again. I will always have love for her, i spent 4 years with this girl but that does not mean i should be with her just because i spent so much time with her. She deserves to find someone that will give her what she needs because that guy is not going to be me anymore because i flat out just dont want to. For all those people going through the same bs that i am my only advice is to not contact them and just think of it as a new begging and not an end. Every day i woke up and seriously thought i needed her. But i dont. I thank everyone on this website and my family and friends who have been there for me. I used to laugh at people who would sob over a girl but now i completly understand. Its no joke! Time to move on to bigger and better things and i will continue to update everyone on my progress! There is no going back, im going to have one last talk with her and that will be it. I was so worried about breaking her heart and how she is going to feel but she didnt care for one second how i was feeling so that will give me more power to let this go for good.
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