QueenDeath Posted October 6, 2015 Posted October 6, 2015 Hello everyone! Sorry for if this is long. It's been a month so far since my LDR ex boyfriend dumped me on August 22. It's been a month right? yeah. Since the breakup, I went through a wave of emotions. I was in shock since it felt like the breakup was out of the blue, however, after being on here for quite sometime now I realize it wasn't out of the blue. I wasn't in much of denial, however, I started pleading for him to not end it, looking back...wished I didn't do that because having someone see me at my lowest points like that, bothers me. Anyways, I then started using OkCupid for casual dating and sex then after awhile I decided to stop using it because being in college, making sure to stay on top of my grades, setting my career down path and having to read messages and all, it was getting too much so I decided to delete my profile. As much as I did enjoy going out on dates and the sex, no matter how much fun I had and even the sex was great, I lost interest quickly. As much as I enjoy sex, I don't have much of an interest in it for now. So now I'm just focusing on college and getting a job. I changed my major a few weeks ago to Graphic Design and Illustration, something I always wanted to do since middle school, which I'm excited for, taking mostly art courses spring semester so I'm happy for that. <3 I also got back into drawing and I'm happy I got back into it. As of now, I'm doing okay, I'm not crying like I used to, I still feel sad sometimes about it all because he was my best friend and it sucks not having my best friend around. I'm not as social as I used to be since I stopped being friends with this group that I've known for 7 years, the connection wasn't there no matter how many times we hanged out, I felt as if I drifted away from them, not that I wanted to or anything, it just happen. I've made friends but not close friends or a best friend. I miss having that best friend and it sucks. I have online friends, however, of course it's different since they are online and then there's IRL. Not saying that I don't appreciate them, I do. <3 I'm just not used to not being social, I've been telling myself that I need to get used to being alone but it's hard when I was born and raised in the city. I miss being social and having close friends in IRL. :c Making close friends hasn't been an easy task for me. So overall, I'm doing okay, I still have my highs and lows, still think about my ex from time to time, thinking if he would take responsibility of the breakup and realize that he also plays a part in it and not just me alone, overall, I've gotten better, I still feel as if I have a long way to go and I think that's okay. As long as I keep going that's all that matters.
BelleSkye Posted October 6, 2015 Posted October 6, 2015 Thinking back of my ldr....it was tedious to not invest quality time with your so 'in person'. I ended it and felt nothing. Out of sight out of mind, which happened before the actual break up. Start making life with someone in person. The quality of relationship will hopefully be more meaningful. You have great distractions to look forward to, hopefully the new job will provide better friends and dating opportunities.
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