notmakingsense Posted May 19, 2005 Posted May 19, 2005 Its been around 2 weeks of NC from her after I wrote her that I'm frustrated. She once told me that if we ever broke up, she'd block my IM. Right after she got my notes, she blocked me. Then, just 2 nights ago, I noticed she unblocked me because I can see her on my buddy list again. You know, NC is actually starting to make me feel better about myself. More in control of my life. Now that I can see her on my buddy list again, I've started to regress a little. I've found myself obsessing about why she's done that. I mean -- she hasn't bothered to contact me yet, so why unblock me? Yes, I know, I should take her off of my buddy list. But I'm finding it hard.... this is like a little game.... maybe she's seeing if I'll crack and break NC. Now that I'm visible again on her buddy list, I've even thought of playing little games -- like not signing on even though I'm at home -- so she'll think I'm out.... How twisted is that!?!?!
Jadey Posted May 19, 2005 Posted May 19, 2005 Hun, as much as i know how oyu feel, you MUST delete her off your buddy list. You said you feel worse now tht you have to see her on there. I know its really hard to delete or block numbers or IMs, cos its so final then isnt it. But it looks like this is wot you need to do, ok? Yes it will probably hurt to delete her and have nothing there but it will hurt so much more if you have to see her online and if you contact her. Dont play her games, dont give into them. If you just delete her you wont have to worry about pretending to be out cos she wont see you online, ever. Now that will make HER think and wonder, buit best of all it will help you move on more! She probably is seeing if youll break NC, so do not give her the satisfcation
Author notmakingsense Posted May 19, 2005 Author Posted May 19, 2005 Yeah -- I know. What makes it especially hard is that we haven't "officially" broken up yet. All I got in response to my notes was a statement that she needs time to think about things, and then it was no contact. Deleting her from my buddy list is a symbol that I'm giving up hope that she'll contact me -- and I'm not quite there yet. If this NC goes on much longer, it will be easier to block her.....
Mz. Pixie Posted May 19, 2005 Posted May 19, 2005 The answer is simple. She unblocked you so that you may contact her again, just like you always have in the past. Don't give her the satisfaction.
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