Brandacus Posted October 4, 2015 Posted October 4, 2015 I (22M) dated my ex (19F) for 9 months. In those 9 months, things got serious as we grew together stronger. I finally found myself with a real life partner. My first time being in love. And then March 1 she broke up with me because I'm not Christian. Fast forward 7 months and here I am. I went down to Austin TX for the weekend to stay at my friends place. When we were bar hopping that Friday night, he told me she was in a new relationship with a guy I met at a party when we were dating. He knew this because she has integrated herself with my friend's other circle of friends. And then there I was, balling my eyes out on a corner on 6th street. I didn't think she'd be able to move on from me this fast. I really thought we had something very special. Post breakup she would tell me over and over again how special I was to her and she'll always love me and remember. She even told me that she'd tell her kids about how special I was to her. (her mom went through a similar situation as her. That's where she got the idea.) I thought what we had was unique. I'm pretty sure she's been dating this guy for a couple of months. I'm over here still coping and I honestly do NOT want a relationship right now. I'm the kind of guy that waits years between serious relationships. But I've been going on dates here and there. This has me realizing that everything we promised each other during our relationship was a lie. "I love you forever. This is going to be so hard for me to move on. You're unique and I'll miss you." I thought I accomplished something by winning her heart, and now I know it's on sale at the local thrift store. This has been the hardest thing I've ever been through. I've had heartbreak before, but nothing like what I've been experiencing. I've thought of her everyday since we broke up. I have dreams about her and think of her within 5 minutes of waking up everyday. She's engraved into my brain and I have no idea how to get her out. This pain won't stop. I've done everything from working out to picking up Muay Thai to moving universities. I'm a complete mess, and I'll continue the path of "it takes time" until I get better
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