More hurting, more sadness

[Aries82]

My ex and I had a huge fight two nights ago on FB chat and she blocked me, told me to call her when I over her she will be there.That was after I told her (1month NC) I was doing great (I was) we exchanged few short messages, the day after I had seen some posts on her wall (she said that she will have an orgasam tonight, some picture with my name ) and I asked her why she is trying to hurt me. She was confused, I was humiliated again etc. Just venting, I cry since yesterday and do not know what to do anymore with me, so I prepared a message for her, should I send this:

 

I was not good enough

 

Let me help you to humiliate me and hurt me even more, let me put a golden rug on my back while you walk all over me and treat me like a dog.

Let me hold your knife so you cant damage your hand when you stabbing it in my chest.

I won't move when you slap me or choking me cause that is love, and then I will say I am sorry cause I was guilty for that

I won't even say a word when you call me a fool on you facebook wall

I will wait for you that you show up for dinner after chatting with some girl for 12 hours per day, never mind I was hurt, because I understand

I would feel guilty when you told me that I ruined your night with your friend and that I should not come with you two, who am I there

I was ashamed to tell you how much you hurt me because it was all my blame

I would step away when you choose your friends instead of us after all these years

I would leave my mother, my father, my sister sick or well, to build a life with you cleaning toilets

I would clean, cook and be your housewife just to see your smile on the end of the day

See, I didn't love you, I didn't respect you, you were not my best friend, it was not just good enough

[Meli22]

In a word, no.

[Aries82]

I know, my feelings drive me crazy. one minute I am sad, next I am raging. She hurt me on all levels. I told her next time be careful what you are saying about your feelings because maybe one more fool will come who will trust you, and maybe you waited her your whole life (she was telling me that when we were together), shame on you, then she blocked me. I crossed a line with that. I sent her an apology for that she did not respond. What should I do?

[mtnbiker3000]

Please DO NOT SEND ANY MESSAGE OF ANY KIND!!! It will only come across 1000X worse than you think it will. You will feel worse!!! You will regret it. It will set you back!! NO NO NO!!!

 

Read it it 2 more times, then burn / delete it.

 

DO NOT SEND IT!!!!!