louxor Posted October 3, 2015 Posted October 3, 2015 Long story short, I was at a friends place and I was on her phone cause she told me to look at something on instagram. At the time it completely slipped my mind that she is a mutual friend with my ex (who is very active on instagram), so the chance of accidentally running by one of her photos is high. Well, what do you know, as I was scrolling, there it was - A picture of my ex in this new swimsuit, and my oh my did she look good. By good I mean, the best id even seen her look in a swim suit (given this may be a biased view seeing as she may have come off as looking better cause she's no longer mine) ANYWAY, I instantly dropped into a slump and felt like complete crap. This is the exact reason why I had deleted Instagram off my phone, because I knew this would happen. I felt like horrible, but I didn't know why: 1. I knew that it was just a picture and her personality is nothing close to as stunning or missable as her looks, yet I still felt horrible. 2. I knew that hey it's just a swimsuit, you've seen her naked time and time again so how is this something new, yet I still felt horrible. 3. I knew that the sex we had was boring and she was quite sexually awkward, so I'm not missing anything, yet I still felt horrible. 4. I knew that she was uploading these extra 'saucy' images because she was craving the attention that helps boost your ego post-breakup, yet I still felt horrible. 5. I have plenty of similarly attractive female friends who I know would be interested if I were to pursue them so it's not like ill never have a shot with an attractive woman again, yet I still feel horrible 6. I knew I by feeling all this, it was a sign that I was passed missing her for the actual deeper connection we had, and was only missing her due to her looks, yet I still felt horrible! I am so so angry at myself for feeling like this - I have 6 perfectly logical reasons that without a doubt should stop me from feeling bad about it, yet here I am, feeling like terrible about it. I guess I'm just wondering what your opinions are on this issue? Why do I feel this way, when I know several reasons very valid towards why I shouldn't be feeling this way at all. Thanks!
d0nnivain Posted October 3, 2015 Posted October 3, 2015 Healing is one step forward two steps back sometimes. This was one of those times. Seeing the happy sexy picture of your EX brought back memories of the good times, when you were together & having fun. You miss that companionship & it upset you that you don't have that in your life now. Nothing more. Give yourself permission to feel whatever, then give yourself a pep talk -- your next relationship is around the corner. Then move on.
Author louxor Posted October 3, 2015 Author Posted October 3, 2015 Healing is one step forward two steps back sometimes. This was one of those times. Seeing the happy sexy picture of your EX brought back memories of the good times, when you were together & having fun. You miss that companionship & it upset you that you don't have that in your life now. Nothing more. Give yourself permission to feel whatever, then give yourself a pep talk -- your next relationship is around the corner. Then move on. Yeah, thanks for this. I guess it is just frustrating to see some of my progress fall away over such a little thing, especially when I know it shouldnt bother me. It's like taking a bite of an apple that looks nice on the outside but then you realised after biting it has worms inside, then you go ahead and feel bad later on when you can't eat the same apple despite the fact you now know beforehand about the worms inside.
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