I like this guy , hes very special but he lives in a different country?

[natashalove]

My last Q was about me not my sis so clarifying that.

 

I used to have a "type" like the tall, muscular one who is older than me by a few years. There was no way I would ever settle for a younger guy or someone who wasn't muscular or tall. Even if I liked a guy who was not on the muscular side, they would workout and get the desired shape.

The body shape didn't matter as much the height and age did. He HAS to be tall. And he HAS to be older than me.

 

However when I was at my worst, none of these guys did anything or were capable of doing anything. I had such a horrible mental trauma which was wrecking havoc on my life and peace of mind. I was struggling really hard with my life. I was horribly depressed and completely broken. Not a ray of hope or light was visible and I kept having panic attaks until I stumbled upon a guy who is completely different than what I ever hoped for.

 

He is younger than me. By 2 years. He isn't tall, 5.8 at the most. And he is thin. He also belongs to a religion which is hated by most people, including my family, I never even thought of liking someone who belonged to that religion.

 

But he is extremely cute , actually he is beautiful and he was the only person who was the shinning light. He made me smile by his goofy and nerdy activities. The only times I genuinely smiled was because of him. I thought of him and a smile would come up on my face.

 

I have always been attracted to beautiful eyes and this is the first time I saw a guy who had such gorgeous eyes which instantly pulls me towards him.

 

He lessened my trauma and pain. His voice soothed me and calmed my nerves. Because of him, I regained some motivation. I began thinking positively and now I feel much better.

 

Sadly, he lives in another country and will be leaving in a few days. He was here for 6 months. I was extremely upset when I heard this and the thought of him leaving, makes me cry.

 

But I can't understand what I feel for him. I like him, I am attracted to him but I this is something different. I never felt this way for anyone before I came across someone who is so unlike my choices.

 

What is this and what should I do next?

[d0nnivain]

Kiss him good bye & forever hold him in your heart as the lost "love"

[OrangeParty]

Proof that "type" and all those superficial requirements has got nothing on what the heart wants.

[loveflower]

TELL him how you feel. then whatever the outcome, you will feel peace and closure.