Marcihaynes Posted October 2, 2015 Posted October 2, 2015 (edited) I will try to make this long story short.. Me and my boyfriend got together in 2011 we worked together (for my dad)things were great in the beginning. I have 2 children from a previous marriage at the time age 2 and 3. We fell in love hard I was his everything. Fast forward to 2013 I got pregnant with twins he said he loved it he was so excited to be a dad. About 2 months into my pregnancy he started changing not texting me being distant. I would hear from my brother he was doing pills I would ask him over and over everyday if he was on pills answer was always "no I swear to god I would never, and if I was I would tell you". Well time passes we argue here and there you know "hormones". Well December of 2013 I had to quit work due to being 30 weeks with twins I was the size of a house. Well at that time my sister needed work so my dad wanted me to train her so I did. First day she's supposed to start her and her boyfriends heat got shut off and it is negative 25 degrees so I let them come stay with us . Well by this time things had gotten bad between him and I fighting everyday not trusting him the shady behavior. We still stay together. Have the twins things are good move to a new house. Well fast forward to June of this year he leaves and doesn't come back because of an argument we got into where he was basically Forced to tell me he was on pills. He was gone for 3 weeks During that time my sister was broken up with her boyfriend, during our break they "talked" about nothing more than her boyfriend. So they say. Well I had serious trust issues with him by this time. Well shortly after we got back together my sister moved out of state with her boyfriend so she quit my dads business. Things were "okay" while she was gone. Yes it was brought up a lot and every time it was "that was all that happened" I swear to you I would never talk to her for anything more. I asked him one day if there was anything he was hiding or anything he wanted to tell me. He said no you know about the pills that was the biggest thing I had lied to you about and i would never lie again about anything. Well September of this year my sister moves back and she is back and living with my parents . She is "so done" with her boyfriend and never wants to be with him again. Well about a week after she comes back my boyfriend leaves unexpectedly and doesn't come home after work. I was completely in shock and dumbfounded because the day before he held me and said don't ever worry about anything I would never hurt you again. I had my suspicions she would call him wanting pills or some type of drug (they both do pills ) he said he would tell her no and tell me and not talk to her. Well anyway he's gone I don't have a relationship with her really since I had gotten pregnant. So we are broken up my other sister who works for my dad tells me Wednesday she heard my boyfriend and other sister talking about going to a strip club Saturday . Omfg I lost it I called him blew him up he said "yeah we talk, what's the big deal" it's a friendship whatever none of you business" so I called her and she tells me they are friends and their friendship is important to her , I said okay I'm your sister I'm your blood she says no that's where your wrong we are blood and nothing else! I said wow well he's the father of my children and I deserve to know what's going on. She says it's none of your business but we are friends so whatever. So needless to say I called him tonight and he said I need to move on and get over him, I should of known because he told me a year ago he was done and he would leave and I would "make" him come back. That yea they have hung out but it's none of my business. He sounds of the phone like such a different person. He tried to deny that 2 weeks ago while we were split up that he said he loved me. So I sent him the screen shot and he said wow I must of been so ****ing high because I don't love you and haven't for a long time, that Sunday he sent that he had just brought our twins home. He admitted he was "so high" with our daughters around. I'm not holding onto him. I do not want to be with him after the information I have found out 100% it's over and done for me there's no hope. I just want to know where to go from here. I'm being the best mother I can be sometimes my heart Sinks into my stomach just the thought. He said he would never do this when all I've asked for for so long is the truth not "what I wanted to hear" when he would say he didn't talk to her and never would. I've enrolled myself into school, I've joined the gym. I live 40 minutes from my family (his choice) but am moving sometime next week. For a person not to be able to respect me if not as q person but to the mother of his children really makes me feel a type of way. I feel hurt, lost, sad. But in a way I feel I've had my closure. I'm just hurting. These pills have changed him in a very very bad way. Like I said his voice everything about him is different. The point of the call tonight was about the twins and he said only every other weekend, they are 19 months old I thought that was a long time to go without seeing them. After the "vet very high" comment I don't think he needs to see them until he can get help, I also asked if he will have my sister around them and he said possibly I said what as a relationship and he said no but In case she ever wants to see them. But again she is also on pills just as bad as him. I don't know what to do anymore I've very confused Edited October 3, 2015 by a LoveShack.org Moderator Edited as well as it could be edited. ~ V
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