Do drug addicts feel?

[Reiben17]

Ours was the classic romeo and Juliet circumstance,

We might have wanted each other more than anything but our families wouldn't hear of it.

And this romeo turned out to be extremely out of touch with his feelings and in the heat of an argument,

Dumped me two years ago.

 

I reached out to him a while ago, just to see how he is...he told me had been trying to get back to me for so long but that he couldn't find a way.

Despite both of us trying to be careful, we fell back into the same intensity of the intimacy we shared, that made us feel like

Every nerve in our body was firing at the same time.

As the heat subsided in a week,

We began to talk things out.

I learned he has been abusing drugs for two years and does not intend on stopping any time soon,

 

One night he clearly told me,

That he can not hold a relationship anymore,

And that he would be selfish in trying to keep me with him like that knowing that we both feel too strongly for each other to give "just friends" a try.

Despite saying all that,

He told me he wanted me to stay in his life somehow.

But not grow addicted to him.

In short, a relationship without the commitment.

 

I refused,

And left.

He let me go, telling me he could not ruin my chance at happiness with someone else,

Being too far gone himself.

 

In our conversations...during this time,

He once said as a joke 'you're wasting your time being stuck on me"

And then when I threatened to leave,

He'd fall back pleading and begging to stay.

 

Anyhow,

I did leave,

He gave me the closure i needed but I still do not think i will love anyone the way that i fell for him.

 

I just get upset thinking,

That i still go through times when his face keeps swimming through my head,

His name begins to ring, and it just gets stuck on the tip of my tongue,

And the intimacy we shared makes my chest tight,

And stomach throw knots.

 

But he will just numb himself up,

And his unending string of friends,

The thrill of his life,

Will erase me from him easily...

The drugs had already put a wet blanket over his emotions,

He could hardly feel anything...I could tell.

 

It makes me doubt the "i love you"s,

Now when i think about it,

I wonder if he just missed the attention, which is why is let me back in,

If he only just wanted to ease the guilt,

That he felt for breaking up with me so badly,

And to still go by his rule of remaining friendly with all of his exes....

I've started wondering if he just wanted to get back to me because he had begun feeling that i was over him and doing great in my life while his world is on its way in a downward spiral, and that might've been a blow to his ego...?

 

I think that I might even just meet someone way better than him,

But I know for a fact i will still love him the same crazy, inexplicable way that i did since we kissed at 16.

But maybe for him...I'm not that girl, (even though he SAID that i am)

 

So do drug addicts mean it when they say they are in love?

Are they really?

Do they feel ANYTHING?

Do the emotions just vaporize?

Can they truly love someone? Despite the 24/7 high?

Can they be sleeping with other people, and still claim to love you?

 

If anyone has a say?

Edited September 29, 2015 by Reiben17

[buck3200]

Depends on what drug and is he really an addict. IMHO people often call themselves addicts that are quit well functioning just because society calls them that. Just like there are alcholics and people who drink....there are people who do drugs and addicts (though most addicts won't admit this).

 

He may very well have turned to drugs because of the pain of your break-up.

That is a very dangerous way to start doing drugs.

[HeartbrokenNewbie]

I think they feel too much & that's what leads to the drugs, to ease the pain x

[Reiben17]

He said he has tried just about everything,

But meth, cocaine, weed are the regular thing.

 

He was the one who dumped me,

How could it be post-break up pain,

He was soo relieved i think after breaking things off with me,

I used to hear about it,

A different girl every few months, (he's a huge looker)

His out of control, trips across the country with his friends,

He seemed like he was having the time of his life.

 

Can't you just be doing drugs for the sake of the high?

And nothing more? No pain?

Edited September 29, 2015 by Reiben17

[Jacob_Duluoz]

Meth has horrible longterm effects and is an intense physical addiction. Very moderated occasional cocaine use won't result in physical addiction (like one time a year), otherwise you can go off the rails. Marijuana is addictive but can be ceased without serious consequence, it's not even close to being as bad as alcohol or smoking in terms of health effect and habit formation.

 

I won't have anything to do with people who use meth or do cocaine on the regular. I smoke marijuana for recreational and medical reasons. It's had an effect on my life, but I still love, especially jazz music, writing, food and playing with my dog. We're in love! I don't think Shakespeare would have envisioned a speed freak or coke head version of Romeo and Juliet, the evidence that the Bard wants this relationship to continue is non-existent.

[todreaminblue]

He said he has tried just about everything,

But meth, cocaine, weed are the regular thing.

 

He was the one who dumped me,

How could it be post-break up pain,

He was soo relieved i think after breaking things off with me,

I used to hear about it,

A different girl every few months, (he's a huge looker)

His out of control, trips across the country with his friends,

He seemed like he was having the time of his life.

 

Can't you just be doing drugs for the sake of the high?

And nothing more? No pain?

 

 

i dont know the guy......but i do know that addicts have feelings.....and care and some dont......just like some people are more emotional than others..some care....some dont...and its not about drugs........drug addiction can change a person and what they do but essentially once the high wears off.......the same person is still there...the come down however is much worse.......nasty times.....

 

i dont want to date an addict...because i have before ....and it took years away from me......it aged me...it is trauma actually...the infidelity the betrayal the deceit the stealing......ill give you an example.....

 

 

i love music....always have ....i had this awesome thousand plus music collection..years ago....never catalogued....but it was in alphabetical order and genre...i had rare music and everyone i knew told me how special it was ....i knew that already....it was a holiday in sound.....i put it in loan to get some money....another things drugs affect...because i didnt have any money to pay bills......i was living with more than one addict.....took me a while but i got the money back to go get i tout....and i went to pick up my music.......and it was gone...every single last cd....someone i had helped or knew had been able to go in and pick it up and just like that my years of collecting music from a teen was over....all my heart and soul was in that music..........it was a guy who took it....i never found out which guy it was.....i cried for nearly a week.......people my family and friends kept bringing me over cds.....but it wasnt the cds i was upset over.....i was upset whoever took them knew how much they meant to me....and that i meant so little to them they would do that to me and the fact it was probably somebody i gave a hot meal and a warm bed too...or it could have been my current boyfriend at the time...who knows....

 

 

....it was my escape....my haven to listen to music with my headphones on..it literally was my heart and soul's peace of mind.....and someone took it all from me.....i would have preferred they beat me with a baseball bat than what they did.....they took the only thing that was really mine to own

 

 

......i still counsel and stay friends with addicts..still give hot meals an ear or a blanket at night......but intimacy is out..so is trust.........it just isnt a happy life......not at all...or would it ever be a happy life to date an addict......he was right to let you go.and you are right to stay away..i am sorry you feel hurt by him...you have however dodged a bullet.........deb..

[buck3200]

Meth has horrible longterm effects and is an intense physical addiction. Very moderated occasional cocaine use won't result in physical addiction (like one time a year), otherwise you can go off the rails. Marijuana is addictive but can be ceased without serious consequence, it's not even close to being as bad as alcohol or smoking in terms of health effect and habit formation.

 

I won't have anything to do with people who use meth or do cocaine on the regular. I smoke marijuana for recreational and medical reasons. It's had an effect on my life, but I still love, especially jazz music, writing, food and playing with my dog. We're in love! I don't think Shakespeare would have envisioned a speed freak or coke head version of Romeo and Juliet, the evidence that the Bard wants this relationship to continue is non-existent.

 

This guy as likely as not has contact with people who do things he has no idea of. If you only have contact with (that you know of) full blown alcholics, what do you expect your opinion to be of people who drink. Because drugs are far less socially acceptable, many don't advertise their use to people unless they are sure they won't be judged.

 

How can he not realize how many there are that say the same things he says about MJ smokers. What a tool.....

[Reiben17]

Yes i do realize that i need to have nothing to do with him anymore.

I guess I'm just going through the pay-back phase...

When you want the other person to just suffer the emotional pain they have put you through.

I'm not going back.

 

And i suppose I just need to consider him a rock,

No feelings, no nothing.

 

Since there really isn't any point in wondering if i will ever be on his mind again or remain in his conscience as someone he'll always love.

If he doesn't or does (which is unlikely) remain in love with me, I'll never know.

 

As for the drugs,

I hope he enjoys them, and his promiscuity to the fullest.

Shouldn't care.

 

THIS druggy,

Definitely doesn't feel.