Shr said it was true love, but now she doesnt knkw if she can love me forever.

September 29, 2015

Where to begin. It all started about a month ago. We first met in the beginning of summer 2015. My friend invited her over to play basketball and from even there I knew I wanted to get to know her. Well we never saw each other after that day until 2 months later. She contacted me on Facebook asking "hey what's up?" the dai before she contacted me She crossed my mind. What are the odds she contacts me out of nowhere the very next day. We chatted all day on Facebook and everything was going pretty well we laughed and we decided we wanted to meet each other the next day. I drove to her house picked her up and we walked on a trail near her house for about an hour just talking and getting to know one another. Right then and there I knew she was someone special I knew she was destined for great things it's just something you know. I knew that I wanted to get to know this girl more. After walking on the trail we went to her grandmas house to play basketball go figure that's how we first met in the first place 2 months ago. We had a good time we enjoy each others company we ended up going to cherry berry to get some frozen yogurt and heading to fazolis before going back to her place to watch Netflix. We laid in her bed and just cuddled. She fell asleep on top of me with her head on my chest. I didn't have any attention of staying that night very first date. But everything was perfect I woke her up around 2 a.m. and ask her if I should leave and she said no so I stayed. I was soon come to regret this decision. We woke up the next morning together because I had to leave for work in the morning I remember all she could do was smile and say how great of a time she had and I said the same thing all I could think about was spending more time with her. So I asked her I was planning on going up to the beach in a couple days and if she would like to go with me and she said she would love it. The next day she wanted to see me so I went back to her place and we had a fire outside we just SAT there talked more about her family and my family and just talked about life we watch the movie got some food and I stay the night again. I believe that was the night when things got more romantic as they say. Third base mostly. The third day in a row I saw her we went to see a movie and again went back to her place. The next day we went up to the beach it was one of the best days of my life. And I would come to know that was one of the best days of her life. There was a moment moment I will never forget the moment I knew I loved her we were sitting by the rocks watching the waves crash up against them and we forgot our phones in the car so I went back to go get them. I came running back only to find her sitting on a rock overlooking Lake Michigan and I stopped in my tracks and could only stare and right then and there I knew that I loved her right then and there I got this feeling I never felt before I knew it was true love. I capture the moment by taking a picture without her even knowing it she would come to say that she love that picture because she knew that she didn't know she was being taken a picture of. We spent the rest of that day traveling around I made spaghetti for her that night and again I stay the night and we made love. I knew that I loved her now but how to say it how to say it in the perfect moment. Over the next five days we continue to see each other we had another fire at her house and we cuddled outside under the stars. And at one moment we both looked up and saw a shooting star it lasted less than a second and yet for some reason we both looked up and we saw it again what are the odds of that ever happening. The next day we went to the Botanical Gardens I never been there before and she wanted to take me. We had the best time together it was so beautiful she was so happy. The next day I asked her if she wanted to go back up to the beach and she said yes. We were laying there on the beach her head on my chest. She lifted her head staring into my eyes and I told her how I knew when I loved her when I saw her sitting up on that rock and I told her that i love you. You should have seen her face she had the biggest smile I've ever seen she just blushed so red. She told me she was waiting for me to say that I love her she said that she knew she loved me not even a couple days before I told her. I thought I had a happiest day of my life but this was the happiest day of my life we spent the rest of the day on bliss. For the next three and a half weeks we were perfect together we were in love. It was some of the little things that showed me that she was true. She wrote me a love letter the first sentence was saying how she knew from the first night that I was someone special she continued saying that she never wants to let me go and that she thinks that this is true love that she loves me. That touched me greatly because I finally found someone who loves me for me who made me happy and who cares deeply about me. For the entire month we were together constantly we did everything together and it seemed perfect. She told me how I was her everything her knight in shining armor how she thought about spending the rest of her life with me marriage kids. The more more I thought about it the more I realized this is the woman of my dreams. We laughed we smiled we cried. Our lives and lifestyles are different. She doesn't have much of a family she's 19 and I'm 23. She lives in temporary housing right now with her best friend's dad because she doesn't have one. She's surrounded by drugs cocaine crack meth ecstasy marijuana xanax adderall pretty much anything. I never grew up with those drugs but I have smoked weed. We would always smoke weed together in her bedroom and we will just hang out at her bedroom if we weren't doing stuff otherwise. She has a rough life there's so much more to tell but I really don't want to go into it. There were nights where we cry together because of something she did. She thought I didn't approve of it and she question why I love her how someone could ever love her. I told her I'm one not to judge anyone. And I told her that love is hard to fathom it's not something you choose to do it's something that just happens I told her I love you because you are the most beautiful woman I've ever laid eyes upon your funny unique attractive smart outgoing and a free spirit. And then there were the underlying reasons why I love her maybe it's because she makes me happy when I'm with her maybe it's because she makes me a better person and she completes me or maybe it's just because she loves me. I talk to her friends dad that night alone together. He told me just how much she loves me. When I would leave in the morning from her place to go to work she would go into his room he said and she would talk about the day we had together and the night we had and he said she would always be smiling and be all googly eyed. That only enforce the idea of how much she loved me. I can't believe how someone could love me so much. She told me that she wanted out of the environment she lived in she don't want to be surrounded by drugs constantly and I told her that she can move in with me or we can get an apartment when the temporary housing ends. I knew it was way too fast to do something like this and I told her that but she like the idea she wanted to. For the one month we are together it was perfect happiness it was love it was true love. She told me how I was her everything how it was true love for her and she can't believe how I came into her life. I told her for our one month anniversary that I was gonna take her out for a nice dinner nothing too big is only one month after all. My surprise was going to be a single rose and the love letter. Ever since she wrote me a love letter two weeks prior I had planned one myself and was going to give it to her that night. The night before our one month anniversary she sent me a text after I got out of work at 9 o'clock at night. It was the worst moment of my life. My world came crashing down. This is what she wrote. "I am so very sorry but after great thinking I have decided you and I have just met at the wrong time of life. Have to follow my own path and that doesn't include you. You are a great guy don't get me wrong we had a lot of fun together but it's over please don't respond. I have many great times but I just don't think my heart is ready I'm sorry my heart just thinks we're not meant to be." The first thing I thought to myself was please god not again I've gone through this before but this time is so so so much worse because this person I loved this is the first person I could truly say that she's going to be the woman of my life and she told me how I was her everything and how much more we had together and how much more there is going to be.. I didn't think, I went to her house that night I had to see her I have to know why. I got there and we talked in her car in a parking lot she said she was going through a lot of things in her life and that she needed time and space to figure things out I went back home that night and we talked on the phone for 2 hours she told me how her friends that would talk to her and get things in her mind things about me and her and how we wouldn't ever work out together her friends dad told her how we have two different lifestyles and how that can never work and she thought the same thing then she told me how we do have two different lifestyles but I told her I don't see it that way I look at you and the way you live you are a free spirit and so am I I've just been locked away because of my parents and their ideals for me but deep down we are the same and being with you has shown me so much more. She continued to say that she didn't know if she could love me forever and she wondered if I could love her forever I told her I can and I've already decided that I could a long time ago she showed me everything she had she pushed my limits to see if I would walk away to see if I could handle her and I was still here and I will be here. I also told her that it's hard to know if you can love someone forever after only a month being with that person to give it more time. For the next couple days I was empty I was confused lost broken numb. I couldn't eat I could barely sleep. When I woke up in the morning I felt happy that I was going to be able to see her that day but then in an instant it all came back to me and a crushing wave and I was depressed. I was so lost I didn't understand. How someone can say that they love me and tell me that we were going to move in shortly and then 4 hours later tell me that we're not meant to be. I didn't understand how someone could say that is true love how someone said she was so happy with me then say something like that she said I was your everything I don't understand and I still don't. We talked last night on the phone and through text. She told me how her friends and her friend that her friend's dad are telling her so many things and I told her don't listen to them don't listen to anybody not even me you can only listen to yourself. But I did tell her in my opinion love doesn't happen overnight love doesn't even happen in a month for some people yes but not for everybody. I told her that love happens over time by staying together by continuing to see each other and from the time we are apart from one another. Overtime we grow to love each other and appreciate each others company. When we are apart we learn to appreciate each other more and more. But only time can give us that by staying together can we grow to love one another and by staying together and giving the time can we truly know if we are meant to be. I told her that I'll give her the space and time she needs to figure things out I said I wouldn't text her or call her I told her she has my number and when she's ready she can contact me. The very next day she contacted me in the morning she had an interview for a job I wish her good luck she continued to say that she wanted to talk to me face to face she said that she had so much on her mind she said she loved me but its so hard. We decided we were going to meet in a park the very first place where we first truly Met playing basketball all those months ago. I waited on a bench overlooking the river for 3 hours she never showed. I called her and she said she could not bear herself to see me face to face that it was too hard and that all we would do would be crying. So we talked for an hour on the phone. I did a lot of talking I think she needed that she just listened. I continue to tell her how love doesn't happen this quickly bet you can't really know for sure if you're meant to be with someone in less than a month I told her it takes time to give us a chance. I told her we did move too fast we saw each other too much and we stay the night at each others places too much and that's not how it should have been and that I'm sorry. I told her if she wants to we can start over try going out on simple dates not staying in each others places overnight. We talk about other things about love about us. At the end of the hour talking on the phone she said she wanted to meet me that night she told me that she misses me that she is happy with me and everything that we do she told me that I'm a great guy but she just doesn't know if she can love me forever she told me she loves me for me but she doesn't know if she can love me forever. It breaks my heart for her to say that after she told me that it was true love and I believed it I opened my heart up completely I loved her completely and I thought she love me completely. I agreed to meeting her last night and so we met at the mall. We smoke some weed in her car and just hung out went shopping for some shoes she needed for her new job today and then went to taco Bell and ate. She drove me back to the mall to where I park my car and we just SAT there. There was a lot on my mind as I'm sure there was a lot on her mind. She told me how she wished she could just come back to my place for a bit but she said she couldn't. I asked why even though I kind of knew already. She said because she isn't ready. So I left I got out of the car and she called me back she said she wanted to hug I felt terrible forgetting that. There's so much on my mind that it just slipped me. Instead of saying I love you goodbye and giving her a kiss I didn't know what to do so I was just going to leave and go back to my car it was so hard. The previous night when we were texting about us she told me that I'm on her mind 24/7 and she thinks about love. As of now we were going to try to start over take things slow just date and hang out continue to text each other and talk and see where things take us only time can tell. It's just so hard right now because I thought this woman loves me and for her to say that she doesn't know if she can love me forever breaks my heart because I know I can love her forever. So it's really hard for me to start things over to not be able to kiss her or say I love you or call her babe I don't know if we're ready for that I don't know if she's ready for it or if she ever will be again. She told me how we do have different lifestyle but I told her that lifestyles change that I'm not the same person I was a year ago or even 6 months ago I told her the way you live it's something I'm looking for you're a free spirit and you make my free spirit that was locked away all those years emerged. I think she still needs time and space to figure things out even though all I do 24/7 is think about her and the times we had together it's so hard to be with someone all the time to be in love with someone all the time to believe that you're meant to be with that person and then it all stops in an instant. She said she misses me she wants to give us a chance but I think she still needs time and I think I need time as well to understand how I feel. As of now I feel depressed I don't want to do anything except to see her to see her smile and be happy. I want things to work out for us she told me that she was in love with me for that month and only recently has she thought she couldn't love me forever she told me and that she did think it was true love I just hope we can come to love one another like we did again. Can anybody please give me some answers and guidance I am so broken I'm lost confused I need understanding. It's hard to take things slow when we were going so fast I know we are going too fast and it was not the best idea and I told her that that we can slow things down but I think I need to talk to her and tell her how I really feel she says that I love her more than she loves me and I don't want that two be Tru because I know if it is that's only going to push her away. Please help.

September 29, 2015

Wall of text.

Didn't read.

September 29, 2015

I had to let myself go, I have no one to turn to and talk about this. Please.

September 29, 2015

Please, break up your text into paragraphs. It gives me dizzy spells just looking at it!

September 29, 2015

As much as I tried to convince myself to read this, I just can't @__@, I don't mind it being long but please, break it down into paragraphs like SoulCat said. We want to help you, help us too! lol

September 29, 2015

I hope this isn't against the rules, I just added breaks to make the post a little easier to read!

Where to begin. It all started about a month ago. We first met in the beginning of summer 2015. My friend invited her over to play basketball and from even there I knew I wanted to get to know her. Well we never saw each other after that day until 2 months later. She contacted me on Facebook asking "hey what's up?" the dai before she contacted me She crossed my mind. What are the odds she contacts me out of nowhere the very next day. We chatted all day on Facebook and everything was going pretty well we laughed and we decided we wanted to meet each other the next day.

I drove to her house picked her up and we walked on a trail near her house for about an hour just talking and getting to know one another. Right then and there I knew she was someone special I knew she was destined for great things it's just something you know. I knew that I wanted to get to know this girl more. After walking on the trail we went to her grandmas house to play basketball go figure that's how we first met in the first place 2 months ago. We had a good time we enjoy each others company we ended up going to cherry berry to get some frozen yogurt and heading to fazolis before going back to her place to watch Netflix. We laid in her bed and just cuddled. She fell asleep on top of me with her head on my chest. I didn't have any attention of staying that night very first date. But everything was perfect I woke her up around 2 a.m. and ask her if I should leave and she said no so I stayed. I was soon come to regret this decision.

We woke up the next morning together because I had to leave for work in the morning I remember all she could do was smile and say how great of a time she had and I said the same thing all I could think about was spending more time with her. So I asked her I was planning on going up to the beach in a couple days and if she would like to go with me and she said she would love it.

The next day she wanted to see me so I went back to her place and we had a fire outside we just SAT there talked more about her family and my family and just talked about life we watch the movie got some food and I stay the night again. I believe that was the night when things got more romantic as they say. Third base mostly.

The third day in a row I saw her we went to see a movie and again went back to her place. The next day we went up to the beach it was one of the best days of my life. And I would come to know that was one of the best days of her life. There was a moment moment I will never forget the moment I knew I loved her we were sitting by the rocks watching the waves crash up against them and we forgot our phones in the car so I went back to go get them. I came running back only to find her sitting on a rock overlooking Lake Michigan and I stopped in my tracks and could only stare and right then and there I knew that I loved her right then and there I got this feeling I never felt before I knew it was true love. I capture the moment by taking a picture without her even knowing it she would come to say that she love that picture because she knew that she didn't know she was being taken a picture of.

We spent the rest of that day traveling around I made spaghetti for her that night and again I stay the night and we made love. I knew that I loved her now but how to say it how to say it in the perfect moment.

Over the next five days we continue to see each other we had another fire at her house and we cuddled outside under the stars. And at one moment we both looked up and saw a shooting star it lasted less than a second and yet for some reason we both looked up and we saw it again what are the odds of that ever happening. The next day we went to the Botanical Gardens I never been there before and she wanted to take me. We had the best time together it was so beautiful she was so happy. The next day I asked her if she wanted to go back up to the beach and she said yes. We were laying there on the beach her head on my chest. She lifted her head staring into my eyes and I told her how I knew when I loved her when I saw her sitting up on that rock and I told her that i love you. You should have seen her face she had the biggest smile I've ever seen she just blushed so red. She told me she was waiting for me to say that I love her she said that she knew she loved me not even a couple days before I told her. I thought I had a happiest day of my life but this was the happiest day of my life we spent the rest of the day on bliss.

For the next three and a half weeks we were perfect together we were in love. It was some of the little things that showed me that she was true. She wrote me a love letter the first sentence was saying how she knew from the first night that I was someone special she continued saying that she never wants to let me go and that she thinks that this is true love that she loves me. That touched me greatly because I finally found someone who loves me for me who made me happy and who cares deeply about me.

For the entire month we were together constantly we did everything together and it seemed perfect. She told me how I was her everything her knight in shining armor how she thought about spending the rest of her life with me marriage kids. The more more I thought about it the more I realized this is the woman of my dreams. We laughed we smiled we cried.

Our lives and lifestyles are different. She doesn't have much of a family she's 19 and I'm 23. She lives in temporary housing right now with her best friend's dad because she doesn't have one. She's surrounded by drugs cocaine crack meth ecstasy marijuana xanax adderall pretty much anything. I never grew up with those drugs but I have smoked weed. We would always smoke weed together in her bedroom and we will just hang out at her bedroom if we weren't doing stuff otherwise. She has a rough life there's so much more to tell but I really don't want to go into it. There were nights where we cry together because of something she did. She thought I didn't approve of it and she question why I love her how someone could ever love her. I told her I'm one not to judge anyone. And I told her that love is hard to fathom it's not something you choose to do it's something that just happens I told her I love you because you are the most beautiful woman I've ever laid eyes upon your funny unique attractive smart outgoing and a free spirit. And then there were the underlying reasons why I love her maybe it's because she makes me happy when I'm with her maybe it's because she makes me a better person and she completes me or maybe it's just because she loves me.

I talk to her friends dad that night alone together. He told me just how much she loves me. When I would leave in the morning from her place to go to work she would go into his room he said and she would talk about the day we had together and the night we had and he said she would always be smiling and be all googly eyed. That only enforce the idea of how much she loved me. I can't believe how someone could love me so much.

She told me that she wanted out of the environment she lived in she don't want to be surrounded by drugs constantly and I told her that she can move in with me or we can get an apartment when the temporary housing ends. I knew it was way too fast to do something like this and I told her that but she like the idea she wanted to.

For the one month we are together it was perfect happiness it was love it was true love. She told me how I was her everything how it was true love for her and she can't believe how I came into her life. I told her for our one month anniversary that I was gonna take her out for a nice dinner nothing too big is only one month after all. My surprise was going to be a single rose and the love letter. Ever since she wrote me a love letter two weeks prior I had planned one myself and was going to give it to her that night.

The night before our one month anniversary she sent me a text after I got out of work at 9 o'clock at night. It was the worst moment of my life. My world came crashing down. This is what she wrote. "I am so very sorry but after great thinking I have decided you and I have just met at the wrong time of life. Have to follow my own path and that doesn't include you. You are a great guy don't get me wrong we had a lot of fun together but it's over please don't respond. I have many great times but I just don't think my heart is ready I'm sorry my heart just thinks we're not meant to be." The first thing I thought to myself was please god not again I've gone through this before but this time is so so so much worse because this person I loved this is the first person I could truly say that she's going to be the woman of my life and she told me how I was her everything and how much more we had together and how much more there is going to be..

I didn't think, I went to her house that night I had to see her I have to know why. I got there and we talked in her car in a parking lot she said she was going through a lot of things in her life and that she needed time and space to figure things out I went back home that night and we talked on the phone for 2 hours she told me how her friends that would talk to her and get things in her mind things about me and her and how we wouldn't ever work out together her friends dad told her how we have two different lifestyles and how that can never work and she thought the same thing then she told me how we do have two different lifestyles but I told her I don't see it that way I look at you and the way you live you are a free spirit and so am I I've just been locked away because of my parents and their ideals for me but deep down we are the same and being with you has shown me so much more.

She continued to say that she didn't know if she could love me forever and she wondered if I could love her forever I told her I can and I've already decided that I could a long time ago she showed me everything she had she pushed my limits to see if I would walk away to see if I could handle her and I was still here and I will be here. I also told her that it's hard to know if you can love someone forever after only a month being with that person to give it more time.

For the next couple days I was empty I was confused lost broken numb. I couldn't eat I could barely sleep. When I woke up in the morning I felt happy that I was going to be able to see her that day but then in an instant it all came back to me and a crushing wave and I was depressed.

I was so lost I didn't understand. How someone can say that they love me and tell me that we were going to move in shortly and then 4 hours later tell me that we're not meant to be. I didn't understand how someone could say that is true love how someone said she was so happy with me then say something like that she said I was your everything I don't understand and I still don't.

We talked last night on the phone and through text. She told me how her friends and her friend that her friend's dad are telling her so many things and I told her don't listen to them don't listen to anybody not even me you can only listen to yourself. But I did tell her in my opinion love doesn't happen overnight love doesn't even happen in a month for some people yes but not for everybody. I told her that love happens over time by staying together by continuing to see each other and from the time we are apart from one another. Overtime we grow to love each other and appreciate each others company. When we are apart we learn to appreciate each other more and more. But only time can give us that by staying together can we grow to love one another and by staying together and giving the time can we truly know if we are meant to be.

I told her that I'll give her the space and time she needs to figure things out I said I wouldn't text her or call her I told her she has my number and when she's ready she can contact me. The very next day she contacted me in the morning she had an interview for a job I wish her good luck she continued to say that she wanted to talk to me face to face she said that she had so much on her mind she said she loved me but its so hard.

We decided we were going to meet in a park the very first place where we first truly Met playing basketball all those months ago. I waited on a bench overlooking the river for 3 hours she never showed. I called her and she said she could not bear herself to see me face to face that it was too hard and that all we would do would be crying. So we talked for an hour on the phone. I did a lot of talking I think she needed that she just listened. I continue to tell her how love doesn't happen this quickly bet you can't really know for sure if you're meant to be with someone in less than a month I told her it takes time to give us a chance.

I told her we did move too fast we saw each other too much and we stay the night at each others places too much and that's not how it should have been and that I'm sorry. I told her if she wants to we can start over try going out on simple dates not staying in each others places overnight. We talk about other things about love about us.

At the end of the hour talking on the phone she said she wanted to meet me that night she told me that she misses me that she is happy with me and everything that we do she told me that I'm a great guy but she just doesn't know if she can love me forever she told me she loves me for me but she doesn't know if she can love me forever. It breaks my heart for her to say that after she told me that it was true love and I believed it I opened my heart up completely I loved her completely and I thought she love me completely.

I agreed to meeting her last night and so we met at the mall. We smoke some weed in her car and just hung out went shopping for some shoes she needed for her new job today and then went to taco Bell and ate. She drove me back to the mall to where I park my car and we just SAT there. There was a lot on my mind as I'm sure there was a lot on her mind. She told me how she wished she could just come back to my place for a bit but she said she couldn't. I asked why even though I kind of knew already. She said because she isn't ready. So I left I got out of the car and she called me back she said she wanted to hug I felt terrible forgetting that. There's so much on my mind that it just slipped me. Instead of saying I love you goodbye and giving her a kiss I didn't know what to do so I was just going to leave and go back to my car it was so hard. The previous night when we were texting about us she told me that I'm on her mind 24/7 and she thinks about love.

As of now we were going to try to start over take things slow just date and hang out continue to text each other and talk and see where things take us only time can tell. It's just so hard right now because I thought this woman loves me and for her to say that she doesn't know if she can love me forever breaks my heart because I know I can love her forever. So it's really hard for me to start things over to not be able to kiss her or say I love you or call her babe I don't know if we're ready for that I don't know if she's ready for it or if she ever will be again.

She told me how we do have different lifestyle but I told her that lifestyles change that I'm not the same person I was a year ago or even 6 months ago I told her the way you live it's something I'm looking for you're a free spirit and you make my free spirit that was locked away all those years emerged. I think she still needs time and space to figure things out even though all I do 24/7 is think about her and the times we had together it's so hard to be with someone all the time to be in love with someone all the time to believe that you're meant to be with that person and then it all stops in an instant. She said she misses me she wants to give us a chance but I think she still needs time and I think I need time as well to understand how I feel.

As of now I feel depressed I don't want to do anything except to see her to see her smile and be happy. I want things to work out for us she told me that she was in love with me for that month and only recently has she thought she couldn't love me forever she told me and that she did think it was true love I just hope we can come to love one another like we did again.

Can anybody please give me some answers and guidance I am so broken I'm lost confused I need understanding. It's hard to take things slow when we were going so fast I know we are going too fast and it was not the best idea and I told her that that we can slow things down but I think I need to talk to her and tell her how I really feel she says that I love her more than she loves me and I don't want that two be Tru because I know if it is that's only going to push her away. Please help.

September 29, 2015

I hope this isn't against the rules, I just added breaks to make the post a little easier to read!

Where to begin. It all started about a month ago. We first met in the beginning of summer 2015. My friend invited her over to play basketball and from even there I knew I wanted to get to know her. Well we never saw each other after that day until 2 months later. She contacted me on Facebook asking "hey what's up?" the dai before she contacted me She crossed my mind. What are the odds she contacts me out of nowhere the very next day. We chatted all day on Facebook and everything was going pretty well we laughed and we decided we wanted to meet each other the next day.

I drove to her house picked her up and we walked on a trail near her house for about an hour just talking and getting to know one another. Right then and there I knew she was someone special I knew she was destined for great things it's just something you know. I knew that I wanted to get to know this girl more. After walking on the trail we went to her grandmas house to play basketball go figure that's how we first met in the first place 2 months ago. We had a good time we enjoy each others company we ended up going to cherry berry to get some frozen yogurt and heading to fazolis before going back to her place to watch Netflix. We laid in her bed and just cuddled. She fell asleep on top of me with her head on my chest. I didn't have any attention of staying that night very first date. But everything was perfect I woke her up around 2 a.m. and ask her if I should leave and she said no so I stayed. I was soon come to regret this decision.

We woke up the next morning together because I had to leave for work in the morning I remember all she could do was smile and say how great of a time she had and I said the same thing all I could think about was spending more time with her. So I asked her I was planning on going up to the beach in a couple days and if she would like to go with me and she said she would love it.

The next day she wanted to see me so I went back to her place and we had a fire outside we just SAT there talked more about her family and my family and just talked about life we watch the movie got some food and I stay the night again. I believe that was the night when things got more romantic as they say. Third base mostly.

The third day in a row I saw her we went to see a movie and again went back to her place. The next day we went up to the beach it was one of the best days of my life. And I would come to know that was one of the best days of her life. There was a moment moment I will never forget the moment I knew I loved her we were sitting by the rocks watching the waves crash up against them and we forgot our phones in the car so I went back to go get them. I came running back only to find her sitting on a rock overlooking Lake Michigan and I stopped in my tracks and could only stare and right then and there I knew that I loved her right then and there I got this feeling I never felt before I knew it was true love. I capture the moment by taking a picture without her even knowing it she would come to say that she love that picture because she knew that she didn't know she was being taken a picture of.

We spent the rest of that day traveling around I made spaghetti for her that night and again I stay the night and we made love. I knew that I loved her now but how to say it how to say it in the perfect moment.

Over the next five days we continue to see each other we had another fire at her house and we cuddled outside under the stars. And at one moment we both looked up and saw a shooting star it lasted less than a second and yet for some reason we both looked up and we saw it again what are the odds of that ever happening. The next day we went to the Botanical Gardens I never been there before and she wanted to take me. We had the best time together it was so beautiful she was so happy. The next day I asked her if she wanted to go back up to the beach and she said yes. We were laying there on the beach her head on my chest. She lifted her head staring into my eyes and I told her how I knew when I loved her when I saw her sitting up on that rock and I told her that i love you. You should have seen her face she had the biggest smile I've ever seen she just blushed so red. She told me she was waiting for me to say that I love her she said that she knew she loved me not even a couple days before I told her. I thought I had a happiest day of my life but this was the happiest day of my life we spent the rest of the day on bliss.

For the next three and a half weeks we were perfect together we were in love. It was some of the little things that showed me that she was true. She wrote me a love letter the first sentence was saying how she knew from the first night that I was someone special she continued saying that she never wants to let me go and that she thinks that this is true love that she loves me. That touched me greatly because I finally found someone who loves me for me who made me happy and who cares deeply about me.

For the entire month we were together constantly we did everything together and it seemed perfect. She told me how I was her everything her knight in shining armor how she thought about spending the rest of her life with me marriage kids. The more more I thought about it the more I realized this is the woman of my dreams. We laughed we smiled we cried.

Our lives and lifestyles are different. She doesn't have much of a family she's 19 and I'm 23. She lives in temporary housing right now with her best friend's dad because she doesn't have one. She's surrounded by drugs cocaine crack meth ecstasy marijuana xanax adderall pretty much anything. I never grew up with those drugs but I have smoked weed. We would always smoke weed together in her bedroom and we will just hang out at her bedroom if we weren't doing stuff otherwise. She has a rough life there's so much more to tell but I really don't want to go into it. There were nights where we cry together because of something she did. She thought I didn't approve of it and she question why I love her how someone could ever love her. I told her I'm one not to judge anyone. And I told her that love is hard to fathom it's not something you choose to do it's something that just happens I told her I love you because you are the most beautiful woman I've ever laid eyes upon your funny unique attractive smart outgoing and a free spirit. And then there were the underlying reasons why I love her maybe it's because she makes me happy when I'm with her maybe it's because she makes me a better person and she completes me or maybe it's just because she loves me.

I talk to her friends dad that night alone together. He told me just how much she loves me. When I would leave in the morning from her place to go to work she would go into his room he said and she would talk about the day we had together and the night we had and he said she would always be smiling and be all googly eyed. That only enforce the idea of how much she loved me. I can't believe how someone could love me so much.

She told me that she wanted out of the environment she lived in she don't want to be surrounded by drugs constantly and I told her that she can move in with me or we can get an apartment when the temporary housing ends. I knew it was way too fast to do something like this and I told her that but she like the idea she wanted to.

For the one month we are together it was perfect happiness it was love it was true love. She told me how I was her everything how it was true love for her and she can't believe how I came into her life. I told her for our one month anniversary that I was gonna take her out for a nice dinner nothing too big is only one month after all. My surprise was going to be a single rose and the love letter. Ever since she wrote me a love letter two weeks prior I had planned one myself and was going to give it to her that night.

The night before our one month anniversary she sent me a text after I got out of work at 9 o'clock at night. It was the worst moment of my life. My world came crashing down. This is what she wrote. "I am so very sorry but after great thinking I have decided you and I have just met at the wrong time of life. Have to follow my own path and that doesn't include you. You are a great guy don't get me wrong we had a lot of fun together but it's over please don't respond. I have many great times but I just don't think my heart is ready I'm sorry my heart just thinks we're not meant to be." The first thing I thought to myself was please god not again I've gone through this before but this time is so so so much worse because this person I loved this is the first person I could truly say that she's going to be the woman of my life and she told me how I was her everything and how much more we had together and how much more there is going to be..

I didn't think, I went to her house that night I had to see her I have to know why. I got there and we talked in her car in a parking lot she said she was going through a lot of things in her life and that she needed time and space to figure things out I went back home that night and we talked on the phone for 2 hours she told me how her friends that would talk to her and get things in her mind things about me and her and how we wouldn't ever work out together her friends dad told her how we have two different lifestyles and how that can never work and she thought the same thing then she told me how we do have two different lifestyles but I told her I don't see it that way I look at you and the way you live you are a free spirit and so am I I've just been locked away because of my parents and their ideals for me but deep down we are the same and being with you has shown me so much more.

She continued to say that she didn't know if she could love me forever and she wondered if I could love her forever I told her I can and I've already decided that I could a long time ago she showed me everything she had she pushed my limits to see if I would walk away to see if I could handle her and I was still here and I will be here. I also told her that it's hard to know if you can love someone forever after only a month being with that person to give it more time.

For the next couple days I was empty I was confused lost broken numb. I couldn't eat I could barely sleep. When I woke up in the morning I felt happy that I was going to be able to see her that day but then in an instant it all came back to me and a crushing wave and I was depressed.

I was so lost I didn't understand. How someone can say that they love me and tell me that we were going to move in shortly and then 4 hours later tell me that we're not meant to be. I didn't understand how someone could say that is true love how someone said she was so happy with me then say something like that she said I was your everything I don't understand and I still don't.

We talked last night on the phone and through text. She told me how her friends and her friend that her friend's dad are telling her so many things and I told her don't listen to them don't listen to anybody not even me you can only listen to yourself. But I did tell her in my opinion love doesn't happen overnight love doesn't even happen in a month for some people yes but not for everybody. I told her that love happens over time by staying together by continuing to see each other and from the time we are apart from one another. Overtime we grow to love each other and appreciate each others company. When we are apart we learn to appreciate each other more and more. But only time can give us that by staying together can we grow to love one another and by staying together and giving the time can we truly know if we are meant to be.

I told her that I'll give her the space and time she needs to figure things out I said I wouldn't text her or call her I told her she has my number and when she's ready she can contact me. The very next day she contacted me in the morning she had an interview for a job I wish her good luck she continued to say that she wanted to talk to me face to face she said that she had so much on her mind she said she loved me but its so hard.

We decided we were going to meet in a park the very first place where we first truly Met playing basketball all those months ago. I waited on a bench overlooking the river for 3 hours she never showed. I called her and she said she could not bear herself to see me face to face that it was too hard and that all we would do would be crying. So we talked for an hour on the phone. I did a lot of talking I think she needed that she just listened. I continue to tell her how love doesn't happen this quickly bet you can't really know for sure if you're meant to be with someone in less than a month I told her it takes time to give us a chance.

I told her we did move too fast we saw each other too much and we stay the night at each others places too much and that's not how it should have been and that I'm sorry. I told her if she wants to we can start over try going out on simple dates not staying in each others places overnight. We talk about other things about love about us.

At the end of the hour talking on the phone she said she wanted to meet me that night she told me that she misses me that she is happy with me and everything that we do she told me that I'm a great guy but she just doesn't know if she can love me forever she told me she loves me for me but she doesn't know if she can love me forever. It breaks my heart for her to say that after she told me that it was true love and I believed it I opened my heart up completely I loved her completely and I thought she love me completely.

I agreed to meeting her last night and so we met at the mall. We smoke some weed in her car and just hung out went shopping for some shoes she needed for her new job today and then went to taco Bell and ate. She drove me back to the mall to where I park my car and we just SAT there. There was a lot on my mind as I'm sure there was a lot on her mind. She told me how she wished she could just come back to my place for a bit but she said she couldn't. I asked why even though I kind of knew already. She said because she isn't ready. So I left I got out of the car and she called me back she said she wanted to hug I felt terrible forgetting that. There's so much on my mind that it just slipped me. Instead of saying I love you goodbye and giving her a kiss I didn't know what to do so I was just going to leave and go back to my car it was so hard. The previous night when we were texting about us she told me that I'm on her mind 24/7 and she thinks about love.

As of now we were going to try to start over take things slow just date and hang out continue to text each other and talk and see where things take us only time can tell. It's just so hard right now because I thought this woman loves me and for her to say that she doesn't know if she can love me forever breaks my heart because I know I can love her forever. So it's really hard for me to start things over to not be able to kiss her or say I love you or call her babe I don't know if we're ready for that I don't know if she's ready for it or if she ever will be again.

She told me how we do have different lifestyle but I told her that lifestyles change that I'm not the same person I was a year ago or even 6 months ago I told her the way you live it's something I'm looking for you're a free spirit and you make my free spirit that was locked away all those years emerged. I think she still needs time and space to figure things out even though all I do 24/7 is think about her and the times we had together it's so hard to be with someone all the time to be in love with someone all the time to believe that you're meant to be with that person and then it all stops in an instant. She said she misses me she wants to give us a chance but I think she still needs time and I think I need time as well to understand how I feel.

As of now I feel depressed I don't want to do anything except to see her to see her smile and be happy. I want things to work out for us she told me that she was in love with me for that month and only recently has she thought she couldn't love me forever she told me and that she did think it was true love I just hope we can come to love one another like we did again.

Can anybody please give me some answers and guidance I am so broken I'm lost confused I need understanding. It's hard to take things slow when we were going so fast I know we are going too fast and it was not the best idea and I told her that that we can slow things down but I think I need to talk to her and tell her how I really feel she says that I love her more than she loves me and I don't want that two be Tru because I know if it is that's only going to push her away. Please help.

Listen, there isn't one person in this world who can say unequivocably at the start of a relationship that they will love that person forever. There is no way to know what's coming down the road for the future. They haven't seen everything about that person yet.

You need to manage your emotions and expectations and take this one day at a time. Be in the moment, enjoy the time spent with her and learn how to relax. Don't push her. Give her room to breathe.

You take some time for yourself to do things you enjoy -- spend time with friends,etc.

She is being smart. At one month, it's just infatuation, not true love. Yeah, it happens every once in a while that people fall in love at first sight or quickly, but the odds are against that and there is no harm in letting it grow naturally even if it's really love.

Get out there and have some fun with some other things.

September 29, 2015

OMG.

The lines do look pretty on my screen though. hehehe

September 30, 2015

OP:

Google 'Limerence.'

September 30, 2015

I read the post before noticing that someone broke it into paragraphs I'm a hero!

Just kidding.

Look, the girl is being honest. No one can promise another person to love them forever, unless they really know each other and have been through thick and thin together. It's been only a month with you two. Maybe she's concerned that you say things you don't mean. Or maybe you smothered her a little bit (adorably so) and she hasn't processed it yet. The fact that she still wants to try with you means she likes you enough. If I were you I wouldn't talk that much about feelings anymore, I'd just go in fun activities with her and show I care in more practical ways. Don't make the relationship heavy, no need for that, especially in your age.

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