bluekb Posted September 28, 2015 Posted September 28, 2015 My ex keeps contacting me (it's been about a month now since he left me) but his contact is always related to a small biz we have together. I've asked numerous times to keep all biz convos in a project management system as texts and phone calls bring up too many feelings for me. He continues to use these methods. I was ignoring at first, then started responding. Sunday my day started with texts from him and eventually I agreed to meet him to work on things together, this isn't necessary, I don't even know why I did it. Bad move, I ended up having to leave because sitting next to him was making me feel sick. 8 years of our life and now we are like strangers. I don't know what I want anymore, I don't know where to put my energy. I don't even know exactly what I am sad about. My stress level is lower without him, but I still love him. I don't even know if I would want to be with him anymore if he did want me back, which he doesn't. My mind is just a mess. I have to put up boundaries. I need to let go. I know a part of me is holding on. It's like my life became a nightmare and I'm still wanting to live in the dream. But there is no dream because he left me without even telling me there were issues, without even fighting for us. I have to get it through my head that he REALLY does not want me in his life. That all this communication is just business related and I need to move on. I don't know how to let go.
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