MrReborn Posted September 27, 2015 Posted September 27, 2015 Been doing no contact, had a couple of dates and have been moving on. What's been bothering me lately is the integrity of my ex, and my judgement. It was my fault that she broke up with me, and it's hard knowing the reasons why we broke up. What's been bugging me is how I let her walk all over me, and how she allowed it(I tried walking away multiple times, she came back, and I got suckered into it again). She played me for a fool, and I don't tolerate it from anyone. She just kept going from lie to lie. She pitied me by saying I deserved someone better, and apologizing if she hurt me. It was funny because her words didn't match up. I deserve someone better, telling me how great I am, then saying she doesn't want to hurt me. I found it disrespectful that she was trying to ease me into a friendship and expect me not to know what she was up to, on which she acted surprised when I said I won't accept her friendship(power shift much?). Saying all of these things while saying she respects me a lot, when at the end of the day she's just trying to ease her own guilt. I've been rejected by women before and have remained their friend, because they just flat out told me they weren't interested. I didn't get where I am by hearing what I want to hear. It feels good bring able to walk away, but at the same time I have this ongoing resentment towards her. We're in the same social circle and I saw her the other day. When I was talking to other people and ignoring her, at the corner of my eye she was just staring at me. I think what's bugging me is that I like to take action, but telling her off won't change a thing. I also feel slightly jealous because she had three guys lined up(who I know) and she has a cushion. I feel lonely romantically because I have no ome. Dang some women are cruel lol.
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