start8957 Posted September 24, 2015 Posted September 24, 2015 My ex took all his stuff back today. I left it outside my door, so we didn't have to see each other and break the NC rule. As soon as he left, I felt a sense of relief and freedom. I just felt light and free, like a huge weight has lifted. Now sadness and loneliness is creeping in. I guess I realize that it's really over. That the guy and relationship I fought so hard for is gone. Two years, just like that. I'm even more tempted to look at his social media, to see what he's doing, if he's still with the same girl he was talking to when we were dating, and in a way still be a part of his life. But I'm refusing to because I know that whatever I see I'll just get more hurt. I'm a genuinely good person that gave it my all, and I'm actually getting mad at myself for being so upset about someone like him, that treated me the way he did for months without even blinking an eye. I know he wasn't the right one for me, but I really wish he was. But he never tried, never sat down and talked about problems, nothing. Total one way relationship and everything was about him. I have A LOT of anger towards him with how everything ended. All I needed was some honesty instead of playing games. Its been months of being pushed away, and a little over 2 weeks since the final breakup. I know I need more time. I've been doing pretty good the past couple of days, until the final end of today. I'm usually a really strong person so feeling this way is torture. UGH.
thejabberwocky Posted September 24, 2015 Posted September 24, 2015 You just described exactly how I'm feeling too. Except my relationship was 6 years and it's been 5 weeks of NC for me. I'm so sad and I miss him all the time but I know I have to be strong and get over this. We'll get through it. It just takes time.
man03999 Posted September 24, 2015 Posted September 24, 2015 6 years with her and she just left and NC for 3 weeks now. I feel your pain! Just keep yourself busy, he's not worth it!
LoveIsMyReligion Posted September 24, 2015 Posted September 24, 2015 Keep your head up, it's during these times that we grow. Sometimes it also helps to remind yourself of the things you are blessed with (write it down). Do you have a roof over your head? A degree? Are you healthy? Do you have family/friends? We naturally focus all of our time and energy on one problem and it begins to consume us. If anything, this failed relationship should validate that you are capable of loving someone and capable of being loved. You will find someone else, someone better and more suited for you.
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