cant kill a stupid urge

[thunder777]

cant sleep am about 3 weeks in no contact, ive lost count of exact days cos i honestly dont care

 

im the one who walked away but only cos her idiot ways left me frustrated and unfulfilled

 

im linked to about 10 beautiful girls online but i cant be bothered mingling lately theyre too "over there" and not "in reach" but

 

anyways days are still flooded with thoughts of ex. i dont want to get in touch & refuse to reply if she contacts cos she'll likely be dirty by now, a rebound or whatever

 

but i got an urge that comes over me that MUST visit her social media every 4 or 5 days i cant make it go away and im writing this with the hope the urge does go away & i can go to sleep

 

why is it haunting me at 3am in the morning, i know it will only cause pain, what technique can destroy this urge

 

and why cant i lighten up to enjoy a chat with these new girls or even just one of them at least. enthusiasm for chatter is extinct

[marcusdevilliers]

cant sleep am about 3 weeks in no contact, ive lost count of exact days cos i honestly dont care

 

im the one who walked away but only cos her idiot ways left me frustrated and unfulfilled

 

im linked to about 10 beautiful girls online but i cant be bothered mingling lately theyre too "over there" and not "in reach" but

 

anyways days are still flooded with thoughts of ex. i dont want to get in touch & refuse to reply if she contacts cos she'll likely be dirty by now, a rebound or whatever

 

but i got an urge that comes over me that MUST visit her social media every 4 or 5 days i cant make it go away and im writing this with the hope the urge does go away & i can go to sleep

 

why is it haunting me at 3am in the morning, i know it will only cause pain, what technique can destroy this urge

 

and why cant i lighten up to enjoy a chat with these new girls or even just one of them at least. enthusiasm for chatter is extinct

 

Honestly man, looking at her social media will rip you to a shreds, i mean absoloutely rip you apart. for your own sanity and your self peace please dont do it. its not gonna help you. best advice if you havent blocked her on everything do it now. and stay off social media for a while trusts me it helps. as for the girls online, take your time and be confident .. its a nice way for you to start over so get friendly with them and know them. it wont hurt you even though you will think about the ex, talking to new people and getting to know them is a nice way to cope.

[quattrob]

Easy solution, block her social media and everywhere. I know it's not a failsafe solution but it definitely helps.

[thunder777]

yea thanks guys im a warrior with the NC am executing with the highest honour

 

she blocked & totally unreachable

 

but there are backdoor ways which i dont wanna do but the addiction (like cocaine withdrawels) keep pressing me to have a peek grrrr

 

rumination turns to curiosity i guess