Ninazee Posted September 18, 2015 Posted September 18, 2015 Hi all , i wish that someone right here would help me in this case as soon as possible.. i desperately need someone to give me an advice or comment about this.. I'm a 25 years old Girl. i met this girl she was 7 years older than me , i was 17 by then.. she was my first lesbian experience when i was a teenager , the first one I've ever loved and kissed..she used to come to my house everyday , talk over the phone 24/7 , i was her first experience too , after a year of the relationship my family figured out our sexual relationship so they tried there best not to let me contact her anymore and my mom kept on sending her text messages and threatening her that she will tell her family and so on .. it was too embarrassing for me to go through this situation but i tried my best to apologize to her and told her that i can't live without her and so on she told me we should stop seeing each other and its okay i forgive you.. then she slowly stopped answering and getting out of my life trying not to hurt me .. i started to be too dramatic about how desperately i need her and i can't live without her. after that she told me she met someone and she met alot of lesbians and to discover all around . so she told many times the girls she went out with and slept with , i was so disappointed because i thought she loved me as much as i loved her . how ever i decided to make her feel jealous and hang around with girls n the places i know she'd be there . and then a big problem happened between us because of girls talk .. that someone told her that i said she's a bitch . so after that she completely disappear. i admit it was too childish things to do but , i didn't know much , i was young i didn't know what i was doing . i started to make new relationships, friendships, and try to get over my feeling for her.. i really did meet ALOT of girls but i kept thinking about her . so after that i decided to have a sexual relationship with a man .. i thought it would be a healthy relationship and maybe guys are better than girls so i'll give it a try lol. but actually i realized after the experience that i love girls more and i can't help it. So.. i tried my best not to contact my ex since then and i was busy meeting new people and going to university and getting a job. One time i remember we were talking on MSN before so i signed in to check up on her account and then i found her so i sent Hey and she sent a song t calls - Gravity another song My heart is refusing me - loreen.. both of the songs meant that she is still in love with me , but at that time she told me not to tell any single person about what she sent because she didn't want her gf to know about it and she logged off. 5 years passed.. she came to my mind like every 2 months , 3 months and i keep saying no i don't wanna send her.. i hesitate n the last minute. Once i sent her on FB that im sorry for all the things that Happened and stuff like that she sent no worries babe it happens and she sent me her number, but when i called .. her gf answered the phone and told me not to call. so i felt so down for what happened.. i kept asking myself why did she do this ! so i never send back . she was in my mind Recently so i send her in July "Hey , How u've been'? She didn't reply. so i thought n my mind maybe the msg is on the others so maybe she didn't see it . i sent her again 3 days ago .. 'Hey i dunno if you are seeing this or not i just wanna see you i duuno why , consider me a new person u'd like to meet and i'm going out with my friend tomorrow take off from work or something and join and here's my number' for the first time she replied the next day Hey dear , thanks for the invitation but im not in the mood these days im so depressed.. anyways this is my num. i woke up and saw this , it was a day to remember lol .. how happy i felt because she replied and accepted my friend request for the first time after 8 years! So i sent her . It's okay we can fix the mood problem . anyways no worries when ever u feel like tell me . but she didn't reply to this. What shall i do? shall i contact her ? call her or send her whatsapp? and what to tell her?
mystikmind2005 Posted September 18, 2015 Posted September 18, 2015 I think allot of women who read this story will probably be reminded of that guy they had to deal with who just would not move on. I don't know much about these things but perhaps you need to prove to her that you can move on in a complete and genuine way, and that way you won't be putting this pressure on her, and she will be more comfortable to be your friend and perhaps one day trust you enough for something more. 1
bluefeather Posted September 18, 2015 Posted September 18, 2015 Sounds the same as any other relationship, like you are being strung along. Distance followed by breadcrumbs. Watch out for your obsession.
Author Ninazee Posted September 18, 2015 Author Posted September 18, 2015 Thank you so much for your reply! I think i moved on i really don't mind seeing her with someone i just want her to be in my life as a friend so do you think it could happen?
clam Posted September 18, 2015 Posted September 18, 2015 She's not into you anymore. She as much as said it in her reply to you. Let it go. You're fantasizing about her from 8 years ago. Neither of you are the same people anymore. Time to move on so you don't string out this heartache for another 8 years.
Author Ninazee Posted September 18, 2015 Author Posted September 18, 2015 She's not into you anymore. She as much as said it in her reply to you. Let it go. You're fantasizing about her from 8 years ago. Neither of you are the same people anymore. Time to move on so you don't string out this heartache for another 8 years. Yeah i know that she is not into me anymore.. but i don't mind i just want her to be a part of my life .. to check up on her when she came to mind.. because she was my first love so i would love to keep checking on her and now how is she doing . so mmm why did she send me her number? what shall i do ? text or call? nd wat to send?
neowulf Posted September 20, 2015 Posted September 20, 2015 Yeah i know that she is not into me anymore.. but i don't mind i just want her to be a part of my life .. to check up on her when she came to mind.. because she was my first love so i would love to keep checking on her and now how is she doing . so mmm why did she send me her number? what shall i do ? text or call? nd wat to send? Why? Why after 8 years do you "suddenly want her to be part of your life"? I think if you're honest with yourself, you'll see that your motives aren't completely pure. It's understandable. Natural to hold onto our first loves. They can be very powerful. Please do yourself a favor and ask yourself "Why, why am I doing this? What do I really hope to gain". 1
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