Emma1a Posted September 11, 2015 Posted September 11, 2015 I was with friends at a patio. He walked by, when I saw him he was looking at me. I turned around instantly but saw that he kept looking at me. He doesn’t seem too happy, I turned around too quickly that I didn’t see who he was with or if he was even with anybody. I wish I had seen who he was with. What does it mean when he looked right in my eyes when I saw him and kept looking at me even when I quickly turned around?! It’s been 5 months post BU & 8 weeks of strict NC (no talking or seeing each other). I felt sad for the night but woke up just fine this morning. Still, I kept wondering why he kept looking at me. We were together 8 years since HS.
TunaCat Posted September 11, 2015 Posted September 11, 2015 I'm gonna be blunt with you. It. Doesn't. Matter. It doesn't matter that he looked at you or that he kept looking at you. If he really wanted to talk to you, he would have actually tried to talk to you. He didn't even try. He took the coward's way out. So it doesn't matter what he did. You've got to stop wondering why he looked at you and why he kept looking at you. Having those constant thoughts is not good for your healing. You've also gotta stop wondering if he was with anyone. Because who cares? You two are broken up and even if he was with someone else, that's his right. 4
warshaw Posted September 11, 2015 Posted September 11, 2015 You have a long history. Random encounters will generate a feeling, it's inevitable. That doesn't mean he's at all interested in reconciliation. 1
15Love Posted September 11, 2015 Posted September 11, 2015 I'm sorry he didn't talk to you. You know that would have meant so much more than him staring. Unfortunately, it means nothing in the grand scheme of things. Let him go. 1
Author Emma1a Posted September 12, 2015 Author Posted September 12, 2015 Thank you guys! I guess even though i have more good days now, I still have my bad days. That encounter brought some feelings definitely but you all are right. He could've reached out if he wanted to. I feel like most of the days I am so ready to let go but there are those days where I still hold on to that tiny bit of hope. It is hard to let that go. It's a process I suppose, time heals all I hope!
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