Sense of Futility

[K2z]

This is just a general inquiry.

 

I am in the midst of what may turn out to be a for-good breakup. (Hope remains, but... separate story.)

 

What scares me the most is the looming sense of futility.

 

If several years of happiness, hope, and optimism pop like a balloon... and you are now walking around feeling like your trousers are down... how can you ever rationalize putting your best foot forward again?

 

It's a minefield out there! Stand still!

[thekarmacist]

you've described my emotional state exactly- thanks.

 

as for your question? couldn't even consider it until ready, and after almost a decade, no idea how long it might take or how enthusiastic i'll be feeling in 'starting over' mode.