whitewhale Posted May 12, 2005 Posted May 12, 2005 There is NC. since my last message that shut him down and cut him off just one whole day and a half has passed. I saw him today. I saw him from afar standing with 3 other guys, just before the entrance to my work. I had to walk past him. I didn't look him in the face to show I don't even notice his existence. I'm not sorry for it. I saw he was shocked. Also because I said hi to one of them, and not all, and asked one of them a question. But I ignored my ex. Yet... I keep thinking. Seeing him was hard - at first. Now it's not sad, or painful, and yet it's so damn upsetting. I think it was my body's reaction. Bodies remember things too. The smell, the touch, the sight etc. I might be moving on in my mind. But it's stuck there, the image. I can't eliminate totally such situations in the foreseeable future. Moving out will make it absolute NC for 2 months, then I'll have to come here to work anyway, so even if just once a week, for two days, it's still risky... I hope I will have forgotten all by then. I think I'll start keeping myself busier all the time now, not to let myself think AT ALL
outdated Posted May 12, 2005 Posted May 12, 2005 Stay busy and keep NC going at least until you are comfortable with the idea of talking. You're gonna be fine!
Author whitewhale Posted May 12, 2005 Author Posted May 12, 2005 Originally posted by outdated Stay busy and keep NC going at least until you are comfortable with the idea of talking. You're gonna be fine! thanx.. U know how it is when U believe it in your rational mind and emotional part just doesn't want to catch up... harrrd
No Foolin Posted May 13, 2005 Posted May 13, 2005 sweet, it is priceless when you jam someone at the line. Once you have any sort of contact, you have to immediately flood the brain with proactive positive thoughts about yourself. Do not analyze it, you did great. No Foolin
XNemesisX Posted May 13, 2005 Posted May 13, 2005 Good job girl! I bet the look on his face was priceless when you completely ignored him! Dammit..I want my chance to do that to my ex! To make it even better, I bet you made him look sooo stupid in front of his friends!
Author whitewhale Posted May 13, 2005 Author Posted May 13, 2005 Originally posted by XNemesisX Good job girl! I bet the look on his face was priceless when you completely ignored him! Dammit..I want my chance to do that to my ex! To make it even better, I bet you made him look sooo stupid in front of his friends! Thanks guys! After one night good sleep I'm feeling better again. I suppose I'll get resistant to seeing him all right. I don't know how his friends reacted because I don't know which of them knew. But I can bet that it was hard for him to digest. He's a kind of person that just craves for attention. So NC is the best weapon in this case, though B4 I could really implement it I had to tell him off to stop texting me. Now the real healing process begins!
Jadey Posted May 13, 2005 Posted May 13, 2005 That is great! Well done. I try to do that to my ex as much as posisble too. Like when i see him at school i try to look away at the ground or start talking to someone next to me and i tell you it damn well gets to them! Its a kick in their confidence alright esp if you have been feeding their ego. Its great. The look is priceless.
Author whitewhale Posted May 13, 2005 Author Posted May 13, 2005 Originally posted by Jadey That is great! Well done. I try to do that to my ex as much as posisble too. Like when i see him at school i try to look away at the ground or start talking to someone next to me and i tell you it damn well gets to them! Its a kick in their confidence alright esp if you have been feeding their ego. Its great. The look is priceless. You bet! Unfortunately I broke NC today... so I'm no longer that triumphant Maybe I'm just weak. I said sorry for the harsh words (from before the scene described in the thread) but I guess he just can't helping being himself (a sting) and wish him grow up faster to be happy sooner. On one hand I wanted to end on a positive note, on the other I was still cynical, wasn't I. I'm screwed.
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