ConfusedSensitiveGuy Posted May 12, 2005 Posted May 12, 2005 I hope you guys got your tea and are ready for a very long story that is my life. Let me start off by introducing myself.My name is Tyson I'm a 21 year old Electrician/Business owner who one day wants to become a police officer. I'm 6"2 205lbs Blonde hair , hazel eyes and lets just say I'm a "ladies man". I have never had a problem getting any girl i wanted and sure to the less fortunate this seems like a perfect situation but getting anygirl i want isn't too perfect when i only want this one girl . This is my story and the rollercoaster ride i call my life. lets take a trip back in time, 5 years ago. I'm 16, A young guy with everything going right. New car i got on my 16th birthday, so many girlfriends not enough time. Grades were good and this gave me the freedom to do pretty much whatever i wanted because my parents thought i was a goody two shoes. But sadly this wasn't true. I would heavily drink, Do drugs and fool around with everygirl that gave me the eye. one day in september that brought a new school year i was walking down the hall and like usual i was playing the field saying hi to all the right people, giving handshakes and "what up dogs" left and right like usual until i saw something that Literally toook my breathe away! a 5"9 blonde bombshell with legs sky high. None of the girls i have been with have ever made me feel this way, the feeling was knew to me. Instead of finding out what color her panties were, i wanted to find out her favorite color. This girl had the power to make me, a outgoing ladies man into a bumbling shy idiot that couldn't gather up the nerve to say hi. eventually that week i got up the nerve to give her my number and ask if she wanted to go to a movie sometime this weekend. She said she'd call me if she had the free time. with everyone looking at me in the hallway. This was the first time me, Tyson the bigshot football and hockey star has ever been on the "i'll call you if i have time" list. I felt vunerable and as if my reputation was ruined but funny thing is..... I didn't care!!!To me she was worth it that weekend instead of going out i made up an excuse to stay home and wait for her call. Well.... The call came saturday afternoon and within 15 mins of talking we had set up a dinner and movie date. I picked her up at her house and we had a awesome time. I eventually asked her to be my girlfriend! She said yes and her and I became a couple. This girl whipped me into shape, I stopped drinking, the drug usage was kept to a minimum(i did it behind her back) and i was happy!!!!! I loved her then and I love her today. After 8 months my family had to move to calgary...... This was a sad time, I couldn't eat for 2 weeks when i found out, I slipped into depression! Very little sleep, Very little food. anyways LISA was very upset her and I connected.... We spent so much time together and became so close. The day came when i had to leave, I made a choice to break up with her...... She cried and cried and pleaded not to leave her. She asked if we could try a long distance relationship, I knew it wouldn't work and yet for some reason i gave in and agreed to try it. The first phone call was a hint of what was to come. The only words i heard come out of her mouth were "i miss you" and "when can i see you" . This tore me apart inside......after a few weeks of ackward and emotionally damaging phone conversations lisa and I agreed it would be best to call it quits. We both agreed to call each other and at first we did but as months passed the calls became Shorter and then occured less often until lisa and i only talked on MSN messenger and through emails. For years we would see each other in the summer alot, she came out her because she had became friends with my sister and we kept really close emotionally. Sure i had girlfriends and she had boyfriends but we always had a place in each others heart. We often talked about being together one day and how much we still loved each other. Lisa and I had many fights through email and Msn messenger. the stress of being torn apart and always wondering what if, has left both of us edgey. We actually Decided it would be best not to talk to each other and as you may of guessed it didn't last long. one of us would break and email the other person or call the other person.Either way lisa and I always began talking again. So lets have a run down. Met a girl, changed my ways, Made me happy, Fell in love, Got seperated Now i'm 21 years old, I'm with a girl, tina. She makes me happy, I'm attracted to her she makes me forget about lisa sometimes. But in reality lisa has always popped in and out of my mind. Now just a week ago i made a trip to my old hometown and saw lisa, like usual it felt so good to hold her and it felt so right!! i would give anything to be with her. We did not do anything sexual, just to make that clear. So the problem i have is I'm with Tina, have been for awhile. I like her alot, she's beautiful and there is no reason for me to break up with her, we have a good relationship. Now Lisa is coming out to calgary for the first time since i been with TINA...... This raises a problem because lisa wants to spend time with me and Tina wants to spend time with me and to be honest she has me on a short leash haha. After all these years i still have feelings for lisa, I still love her and I wanna be with her. But I want to be with TINA too. I'm so confused and have no idea what to do!! Here is where i give you alittle more information on the girls, you will find they are alittle different. Tina is very girly girl, She is a gentle person, very sweet She is very affectionate in the kissy and huggy way. In my opinion she is more verbal about her feelings for me and Attraction to me(always compliments me on my body, saying how sexy i am etc etc) Lisa is alittle more sporty, she played basketball and likes to playfight and wrestle with me, She is good with expressing her feelings sometimes but most of the time she jokes around and shows her feelings that way. She seems to joke around alot pointing out flaws and to be honest i like the fact that her and i can poke fun at each other. With tina she doesn't like any sort of play fighting, whenever i give her a flirtatious push she makes a puppy dog face and says something like "don't hurt me i'm Wittle" or "don't push a princess" This is cute sometimes but sometimes i wish she were more like lisa. to be I would like to take a bit of tina and a bit of lisa and i would have my perfect match. But that's not being realistic!!!!! I'm so torn! I need advice! my family tells me all the time they think me and lisa will get married....... but i don't want to hurt TINA! I'm in love with two girls and I need to choose quickly! I'm at the point in my life where i'm able to pick a girl and be with her. Now i just need to pick the right one! I hope you get somewhat a brief idea of my situation because i need a third party opinion! if you have any questions just ask!!I'm here to help you help me!
Marshbear Posted May 12, 2005 Posted May 12, 2005 I would stay with Tina. The chances you and Lisa would still make it if you got together are slim. You remember the feelings you had with her but time has passed and you now have different lives. Don't ruin what you have with Tina for what you might have or not have with Lisa. Stay with what is good in your life.
twalkoe Posted May 14, 2005 Posted May 14, 2005 Hello!!! I hope that you read this... Listen my friend, if Tina were the right girl... Lisa would not be on your mind...ever. Trust me...take a break from Tina, figure out what Lisa's about and see if she's the one. (Don't have sex!) You'll have to explain things to Tina, but you cannot go through your life wondering about this. In the end, you'll know which and it may very well be Tina (that's why I said don't have sex). Let me know what happens!
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