Wanted it all the time, now she says shes not in the mood.. ??

[dazed343]

Well having giving it alot of thought yesterday just incase I did grab some of my most important things yesterday.

I appreciate all your advice craig. I am going to feel like the works biggest jerk for a while.

[saywha]

Damn! Dude, grow a backbone. Get some balls. You're basically the man of the house now. Quit acting like the butler.

[dazed343]

btw, I'll keep u all updated. thx again.

[dazed343]

Well this morning I left so its over. She even told me not to call her or ask to hang out ever. I've had my really down parts today thinking about everything, wondering if I made the right move. It's hard knowing I'll never get to see her again wondering if my choice was the right one. Although I should be thinking about all the things that made me want out, all I can think about are the things she did for me; getting on the train for an hr to meet me at work so I wouldn't come home alone and stuff like that. I don't even want to go to sleep tonight cause it's been a while since I've slept alone.

[Craig]

You did good and you did the right thing.

 

Now write down all the bad stuff that happened, how you lived, where you lived and so on. When you are feeling sad or down or like you want her back read what you have written.

 

This pain you're feeling is, as another LSer once said, the weakness leaving your body.

 

Now do yourself a favor and get busy doing anything positive to keep your mind off the negative thinking (and stick to NO CONTACT!)

[dazed343]

So she called me today which hasn't helped. Yesterday was tough, paced back and forth through my house. She told me on the phone that she is leaving to go back home (another province) which really hurt. Its like hell right now and the pain is sooo bad. I know when she goes home she has her other guy friends there and thinking of that doesn't help. I don't think I'll be able to re-visit the places we were at for a long time especialy so if she leaves. I don't even want to be at my own house but then I don't want to go anywhere else either. It hurts like nothing I've felt before.

[Craig]

Don't pace around the house, go for a long fast walk.

 

Okay, why would she call you and tell you that kind of stuff? Maybe she wants to twist the knife in your heart a little more.

 

Dazed343 she can see other guys (and probably has) where she was living or "back home." She's leaving because she doesn't want to work, doesn't want to make the effort to be an adult and doesn't want to grow up.