Not sure if we feel same, is it dying down or am i paranoid

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*Met a girl through Tinder (OLD), we started talking through it around 4 weeks ago now, shes 21 and a 9/10, Im 23 and id class myself as 8/9 and constantly have girls begging for me. Tinder led to adding on facebook, WhatsApp, Snapchat and texting and we talk non stop. It was crazy how much we connected, we were so similar it felt like I was talking to myself in the way we take the pi*s out of each other, take the pi*s out of other people, jokes that you would not want anyone else to hear but we both have exactly the same sense of humour and even our text conversation had us laughing out loud in public looking like idiots.*

 

She said some things that made me a bit wary after we first met such as shes not affectionate, she doesn’t like marriage as it seems so forever etc. Those kind of things sounds to me as if she doesn’t want a guy or cant see anything with anyone.*

 

We met last Monday after 3 weeks texting, we went for drinks in a town in between us, she lives 30 miles which is an hour drive round the winding country lanes which sucks and we had a good evening and I dropped her home and we hugged. The conversation, though it reflected our text conversation but more tame, possibly due to nerves of meeting for the first time.*

The next day we met again, she came round my house and we watched some films, again no kissing or sexual activity involved but we had a good time and had a laugh, more reflecting our message conversation and we got kind of cosy and close with each other. Again we took the piss out of each other in person, the conversation never dried up.*

Again I saw her on the Thursday, I was bored and id got myself in the mood to go out that night (I recently moved to this town so have no friends down here to hang out with per se, I do but theyre all boring and on lock from their own relationships) I asked if she wanted to go a club that night, she said she thought it was weird to go just us two, I took that as a rejection, as an “im bored of you now and cant see anything” but half an hour later she text and said yeah lets do it, so we met up and we had a pretty messy night, where honestly we acted like 12 year olds in a club for the first time which I loved, it was entertaining and fun and we didn’t seem stuck up or boring, just having fun. We ended up going back together, we’d been kissing all night but fell straight to sleep. In bed in the morning though (I am ridiculously hyper and constantly full of energy) I was awake after 2 hours sleeping and she was the same so we chilled and then went into foreplay with hands which led to sex. I kicked my laptop off the bed after 2 minutes though breaking it, which made me lose the erection and it put me out the mood so we chilled and watched gory videos and ISIS videos etc (not into them but theyre so interesting, but when I show other people like “oh **** look at this” they refuse to see, whereas me and her were totally into it). These similarities and having fun etc made me feel a proper connection to her but I was worried id put her off with the poor bed performance, I dropped her back and she didnt message me, I text her worried but then the conversation resumed as normal.*

I visit family over weekend but when I returned I text her see if she wanted to do something, she said yeah so we went the cinema, we saw an awful film but we talked all the way through it making jokes and we was both in stitches at what we were saying. We didn’t kiss in the cinema but were not really into PDA but we got back to mine to get my phone and kissed, nothing sexual and then kissed when I dropped her home.*

Monday I was bored and her family she lives with just went on holiday she said I can come over if I wanted to (this didn’t sound to eager but I thought oh well may aswell). We went and watched 2 films but we talked all the way through them, taking the pi*s out the film and each other. I went to leave it was 1:30 plus an hour drive and I had work the day after, we started kissing and then led to sex which lasted almost an hour and at that point I just told her ill sleep here and leave early, we shared her single bed and I left for work at 6am.*

 

The conversation through the last 3 days has been kind of slow though, were both being busy but I struggle for direction to take the convo in. Our conversations can take twists and turns once we get it started, but lately I havent been seeing many observations around me to make to her. And I just don’t know how to get it going off the top of my head. For example yesterday I showed her a funny tweet off someone saying “follow me or ill kill my mom” which led to a 4 hour conversation that never stopped which eventually led to conversations about cuba and bombs and discussing a holiday together.*

 

But I still worry the conversation is drying, ive always felt this way for over a year every girl I meet though after my ex had an affair for a few months I felt I wasn’t good enough which scuppered loads of relationships where I just didn’t get the spark but now I do feel something here and then I start worrying im forcing this into something she doesn’t want when she says shes not affectionate but she sits there holding my hand or we go to bed and spoon I feel like I am taking this where she doesn’t want to go. What is everyone elses take on this? Is she into me, am I forcing it? Should I cut it off? So confused right now.Options***

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Sorry for all the tl Dr people but I just bashed out everything as it come through my mind