Samuel_22 Posted August 23, 2015 Posted August 23, 2015 Hi everyone, I am on 12th day of no contact, well my god damn brain keeps punishing me every now and then, my original post here http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/544132-my-girlfriend-broke-up-me-went-back-her-ex-do-i-have-chance#post6504732 Sometimes I feel I am going crazy... I feel I am melting down in pain... maaan this is crazy... I am a teacher, sometimes in the middle of teaching, memories come back to me, I try to suppress my tears, well obviously my eyes turn red, so I cut my words leave the class, take a deep breath come back in, and this happens again and again and again, I hope my students haven't noticed that, It is such a shame... I wanted to start a rebound today, well I also exchanged numbers with a lady, she called me I apologized to her and said I was not ready for this, because I thought well, if I do this, what is the difference between me and that god damn beast who brought me to this point? The only thing I want right now is justice, I was thinking of taking her back, well man this is not an option, not any more, is there a God? I want her to feel the pain, I want to see her crying in pain, I want her to contact me when her ex dumps her again, tell me she is melting in pain, to tell me she can't her classes any more, to say that she can't go to sleep at night and wakes up with stress dancing in her nasty bones, is there a God? Vengeance is all mine, He says! Sorry I have no one else to talk to... You are the only ones...help me to get through this...
Jaggerz Posted August 23, 2015 Posted August 23, 2015 Hey Samuel. It's good you want to talk. Especially to those in the same boat. We can help each other. For me it's only been a week of mainly NC with highs and lows, at some points I felt like this whole thing was just for the best, remembering all the **** I had to put up with and how I probably deserved better. Other moments, I thought of how I wouldn't be at this point in my life and how I simply would've been way happier with her still by my side. I am a loner. Always have been. Where ever I go, I am alone, and I never minded this because at home would be the only place I wasn't alone. Now I arrive home and am sick with loneliness, just laying on the couch, depressed. I'll tell you what all my friends, and the big ol' internet told me. All the things that just made sense. You need cut contact ASAP, get rid of her stuff ASAP, and set a goal for yourself. You throw yourself on that goal for the complete 100%. Please tell yourself that she is DONE. She is not coming back. Stop killing yourself thinking of this girl. During work, you must focus on work. This has been such a help for me in the past days, it was a difference of night and day. The misery comes in waves but if you're focussed on working those waves never hit you. For me the worst time is the weekend when I should be enjoying life. Do not get bitter with her. Do not get angry. She meant a lot to you once. Part on good terms. Wish her the best in life, don't wish her pain. Then just vanish like a ghost. You will be remembered as a good guy. If the internet is anything to go by, in a few months she will contact you... And then the roles might be reversed, with her asking for her return and you turning her away. Stay strong friend, and remember that you are not alone in this. If you feel bad, you can always talk to me.
Author Samuel_22 Posted August 24, 2015 Author Posted August 24, 2015 Hey Samuel. It's good you want to talk. Especially to those in the same boat. We can help each other. For me it's only been a week of mainly NC with highs and lows, at some points I felt like this whole thing was just for the best, remembering all the **** I had to put up with and how I probably deserved better. Other moments, I thought of how I wouldn't be at this point in my life and how I simply would've been way happier with her still by my side. I am a loner. Always have been. Where ever I go, I am alone, and I never minded this because at home would be the only place I wasn't alone. Now I arrive home and am sick with loneliness, just laying on the couch, depressed. I'll tell you what all my friends, and the big ol' internet told me. All the things that just made sense. You need cut contact ASAP, get rid of her stuff ASAP, and set a goal for yourself. You throw yourself on that goal for the complete 100%. Please tell yourself that she is DONE. She is not coming back. Stop killing yourself thinking of this girl. During work, you must focus on work. This has been such a help for me in the past days, it was a difference of night and day. The misery comes in waves but if you're focussed on working those waves never hit you. For me the worst time is the weekend when I should be enjoying life. Do not get bitter with her. Do not get angry. She meant a lot to you once. Part on good terms. Wish her the best in life, don't wish her pain. Then just vanish like a ghost. You will be remembered as a good guy. If the internet is anything to go by, in a few months she will contact you... And then the roles might be reversed, with her asking for her return and you turning her away. Stay strong friend, and remember that you are not alone in this. If you feel bad, you can always talk to me. Wowwww, you really really made my day, I figure things are getting better better here on my side, I mean I still wake up with some stress and through out the day I experience this frustration, well the fact that my girlfriend downgraded is just some remedy for me! Man I saw her ex (now her new boyfriend) he is not half as handsome as I am, he is not any richer either, he has a carwell I have invested my money in buying a house, what is wrong with that? all and all this boosted my ego.... I just read this I recommend this to anyone going through this stage, it is theirs... I was super kind with this guy and she lost interest read this, https://www.google.com/?gws_rd=ssl#q=did+she+downgrade+
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