Samuel_22 Posted August 23, 2015 Posted August 23, 2015 Hi everyone, I am on 12th day of no contact, well my god damn brain keeps punishing me every now and then, my original post here http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/544132-my-girlfriend-broke-up-me-went-back-her-ex-do-i-have-chance#post6504732 Sometimes I feel I am going crazy... I feel I am melting down in pain... maaan this is crazy... I am a teacher, sometimes in the middle of teaching, memories come back to me, I try to suppress my tears, well obviously my eyes turn red, so I cut my words leave the class, take a deep breath come back in, and this happens again and again and again, I hope my students haven't noticed that, It is such a shame... I wanted to start a rebound today, well I also exchanged numbers with a lady, she called me I apologized to her and said I was not ready for this, because I thought well, if I do this, what is the difference between me and that god damn beast who brought me to this point? The only thing I want right now is justice, I was thinking of taking her back, well man this is not an option, not any more, is there a God? I want her to feel the pain, I want to see her crying in pain, I want her to contact me when her ex dumps her again, tell me she is melting in pain, to tell me she can't her classes any more, to say that she can't go to sleep at night and wakes up with stress dancing in her nasty bones, is there a God? Vengeance is all mine, He says! Sorry I have no one else to talk to... You are the only ones...help me to get through this...
BriNyc82 Posted August 23, 2015 Posted August 23, 2015 Not sure there is much I can say to make you feel better but let it out!!! Wise choice on not following through with a rebound. You're not ready and you would just be using someone (which you know how it feels) Don't we all wish they could feel our pain? Just for a split second?
Author Samuel_22 Posted August 23, 2015 Author Posted August 23, 2015 Not sure there is much I can say to make you feel better but let it out!!! Wise choice on not following through with a rebound. You're not ready and you would just be using someone (which you know how it feels) Don't we all wish they could feel our pain? Just for a split second? I will never never do that to anyone, no, I can't do it to anyone, even to people I hate, how could she do that to me? after all I did to her, after all the energy I spent on her? look mate, did you read my original post? do you think she gave me some false hopes? or do you think she is really keeping as the backup plan? or I dunno, maybe she wants to see how things can work with her ex and then start a brand new relationship with me? this time full-heartedly? do you think it is possible, or am I given false hopes?
BriNyc82 Posted August 25, 2015 Posted August 25, 2015 I will never never do that to anyone, no, I can't do it to anyone, even to people I hate, how could she do that to me? after all I did to her, after all the energy I spent on her? look mate, did you read my original post? do you think she gave me some false hopes? or do you think she is really keeping as the backup plan? or I dunno, maybe she wants to see how things can work with her ex and then start a brand new relationship with me? this time full-heartedly? do you think it is possible, or am I given false hopes? I think you are giving yourself false hope. I don't think she is giving you false hope. I'm sorry. It sucks. But right now she's made her choice.
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