NCgirl155 Posted August 22, 2015 Posted August 22, 2015 (edited) It's been exactly two months since my ex broke up with me, and I'm still feeling absolutely awful and I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm still a teenager, so I thought teenage breakups were something you were upset over for a week and got over? The first week I could barely eat or sleep or anything, so now I can do that at least, but I still find myself crying every single night no matter what I do to try to keep my mind off things. I've been going out with friends and keeping myself busy every day, but it still hurts so much. Its almost like it hurts physically still. It's gotten to the point where I understand that we must not be meant to be, but I can't even explain how much it hurts. I've dated guys for way longer than I have this ex and I've never been this upset about it. He was the first guy who I actually felt comfortable with and he wasn't only my boyfriend but he was also my best friend, so I kind of lost two in one, and it hurts so much to think that I'll probably never have him in my life again. He asked me if we could stay friends after the breakup but I haven't pursued that and probably won't because I'm still in love with him, as embarrassing as that is. It should be even easier because we were long distance so it's not like I see him around, but it actually makes it a lot harder because he'll literally be gone- I won't casually see him at school or anything. Realistically speaking, I'll probably never see him again. And that's so hard to come to terms with because he always used to tell me he'd marry me someday because he's never felt this way about someone, so he promised that we'd always stay in contact as we got older no matter what happened. I don't get why he'd promise something he didn't mean. I really don't know what to do, I'm tired of being out with friends and having to excuse myself to the bathroom to cry, I'm just tired of missing him but I just can't let go for some reason, I can't let go of all the nice words he used to say to me and how he used to treat me (he didn't even treat me badly when we broke up) and I wish we fought or something so at least I could say he's an a** and that I hate him, but that isn't the case. I try to talk to other guys but it feels so wrong and it actually hurts because it's a reminder that they're not him. To this day I still can't imagine what it's gonna be like never having him in my life again. I know that it probably sounds like I'm being an overdramatic teenage girl, but I'm normally really reasonable and never get this upset over things like this. I just don't know what to do anymore. Help? Edited August 22, 2015 by NCgirl155
catlady11 Posted August 22, 2015 Posted August 22, 2015 I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm in my 40's and I miss my ex terribly. Like you it's a physical hurt and I try to keep my mind off him and talk to other guys but it feels wrong and I miss his friendship. My ex always treated me so well and all the memories I have of him are good ones. How I wish sometimes we had a fight so I wouldn't miss him so much. I don't want to come off as condescending so please don't take it that way, ok? But you are young and you have so much life experience ahead of you! You will get through this and you will find someone special. Have you tried writing your feelings down? Sometimes that helps. I love this quote by Dr. Seuss "don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened". I'm not quite at the smiling part yet myself. You will get there, I promise
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