Emixx Posted August 12, 2015 Posted August 12, 2015 My first love my first kiss lots of first... We had been 9 months together and I was very impulsive i hurt him a lot, I have posted before and we got back together after 4 months and i was also impulsive and hurt him and didnt know how to communicate well. By the end i was dependent and very insecure (i guess im at the stage where i only see my faults) you can also see my older threat if you want more details... In the firt break up with him i didnt feel so much pain, i was happy when i saw other couples being happy. But not now its like being single is miserable. And i am focusing on me doing exercise, eating well, refocusing to achieve my dream... but i dont know is this normal? And well i am dealing with the guilt for hurting so much and I dont know I know it is not a big deal but we both lost our virginity together and the day after that well I cried so much in front of him and he said ok you are sufffering i am suffering lets break up. My friends just tell me that it was the last drop and that it was a coincidence that we broke up then but it just jusrts giving myself to someone after 8 months of trying again and bam! break up i everytime i see a sex scene or i listen about it i just i start crying and I dot know if i regret it but i would have liked my first time to be with a guy with whom it lasted and i did out of love and felt safe, but not out of panic because i thought i would lose him...
d0nnivain Posted August 12, 2015 Posted August 12, 2015 It's tough to lose a 1st love. However, you recognize your own fault in this outcome being impulsive & hurting him. You won't get him back but you will heal & move forward in your life. What have you learned from this relationship? Have you identified your mistakes so you don't make them in your next relationship? If so, this was a success even though you can't appreciate that just yet. Hang in there.
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